Lalalalala

fad call me while asleep

2009-04-10T17:13:00.012+08:00

Ive been contacting a lot with the dearest bestfriend of late. These kind of communication was long missed. And we're getting the hang of it anw. Oh, did i mention that i was a little pissed off because she distracted my sleep yesterday.! GRR! And i thought it was something urgent. So, i rushed out from bed and called her using my house phone.
Syasya: Yes. What happened? Fadiah: Oh, nothing. Just want to wish you good afternoon(or something like tt)
It was -____-"
Because firstly, i was damn lethargic. Maybe i was travelling too much with tuitions. Haha! But thanks uh, i still entertain her crap. (:

FADDY - it's alive!

2009-03-24T12:41:00.002+08:00

I AM SO GLAD THAT THIS BLOG HAS COME AGAIN! THANK YOU NURSYAHIDAH! look at the date, year 2006! OHH YO HO HELLO THERE, syasya :)

Finally_syasya

2009-03-18T03:18:00.003+08:00

I didnt know which navigations i clicked on but i could get my hands on this shared blog, finally! Anw, there's so many things here that made me feel all nostalgic. I will read all of the drafts when im free. Oh, hello Fadiah. (: ___syasya

boring ey ade matair?

2006-12-04T14:54:00.000+08:00

LOL. This entry is written by syasya. Yeah pardon me for hurting any party. :) So i plucked my courage to type this out. These days, ive been thinking about this. I just cant seem to get an answer. Seriously, i miss one fcuking brat like a lot. Okay he`s not a brat larh. Like duh. He`s none other than mrBoyfren. Yeah.

>But ironically, asl kite not like other people ey. I mean. What`s the use of having a relationship when u have got no time for her. And even if eu have the time, u spend it with ur other clicks. I just dun understand. At one moment, eu said ure not allowed to go out. The next moment i noe is ure out with some other people. Tell eu. Its bored. Its bored leading a relationship like this. Maybe its because of the age thingy, the time, or whatevernots. I don`t feel that i belong to eu. Nah. Trust me. My relationship with my other guy frens are much3 better. But we`re just frens. TELL me. R eu like this in ur previous2 relationship. Coz majority of mine is not like this. Never. We talk. We contact.

I never come across a relationship llike ours. Maybe i am demanding. But the least u could give is a little attention. Yeah. Trust me in this k. SYasya really lacks the love and care and attention from a boyfren. Like wth. Im no desperate gerl for all those stuffs. I have enough supplements from my other guy frens. But come to think of it. Syasya is really pathetic uh. Ade balak ey tapi tak rase mcm. Kwang3. Im just wondering. Y do i still hang on although i noe that the cycle will repeat itself again. No. At this point of time, we tak fight or whatsoever. But i just wanna fite for my rite.

For nine months plus. Our life has been like this. Love towards eu, i dunnoe how to explain. True, i have that feeling for eu. Love, perhaphs. In my opinion, theres others who can give me all that. But wei. I still holding on to you. And that ring a bell in my head that i have strong faith in eu. But eu prove me that we`re leading one shallow relationship. This point of time in my life, syasya really3 can choose sb who can make me happy. Nah. But i cast all that aside. I wanna eu. Yes eu. Coz boi, i miss eu damn lots. Whenever i wanna make that move to ask eu. I will feel very reluctant. Whenever i see eu infront of my eyes, those hatred, grudges vanish into thin airs.

Yeah boi. Ive been blinded by ur sweetness all these while. I realised that. &that sweetness will make my legs wobbly and melt. My ego will melt too. &tt`s wen thgs repeat itself. It will be sweet for a while. Just a while. And all those stuffs are at my fingertips. I dunnoe how much longer i can hang on. But whatever happens. I hope. I want a change from eu. From us. Maybe some others can be comfortable with eu. But it`s okay it somedae this will come to an end. Im just glad that we survive thru all this and our paths meet. Seriously, its nice knowing eu. Ure the 1st for me to entangle in a relationship with somebody youger. It will be an eye-opener for me. But age doesnt matter. Eu tot me that.

Hmm. Enough said. I hope we will change fer the better. I love eu larh sei. But ure one lucky chap. Sb loves eu a lot. A lot. A lot. N tt sb is me. Yeah. But we shall see how as time passes by. Tkcr love.

Pictures.

2006-12-03T23:44:00.000+08:00

faddie n syasya

nice? LOL

NPCC. Minus shaz. :) Syasya miss him badly-

Nth mmuch.

2006-12-03T23:38:00.000+08:00

Halo. Halo. Has been long since i blog here. HUrhur. So anw. School`s over. Yeah. Prom was fun for me. :) And i got to noe loads and loads and loads of new frens. Yeah. &jupJUP too. He`s hawt sia. I had fun these hols. And i tink kan. Syasya dunnoe lei what to do with my relationship. Mcm boring sei. How eh. I wan him to noe. hurhur. But well. &fads happy with hers. Thk gawd. K laa. I have to go alrd. Fad. Blog here ok. This blog is in coma. . . . Hoho. Ciao.

2006-10-12T22:58:00.000+08:00

ahh. finally. the touch of the keyboard. stupid blog. i can`t sign in at MY OWN blog. damn it. fortunately, this blog saves me. i`ve longed so much to filter everything out but stupid computer was spoilt and for two whole weeks, i had to bear with life without computer. i have so much to say yet so little. let`s cut it short.

SCHOOL IS OVER. sadly. there were people tearing and at the same time, having fun taking photos =))nevertheless, everyone shall always be remembered. ms farah`s words truly touched our hearts. she, too, teared along with us. she went something like "and now, i have to cut the strings to ur kites. ."

class 5A prepared a little something for our beloved form teacher for 3 whole years, MS CHEONG. we wrote farewell notes and compiled it and handed it to her. her facial expressions cannot be described.

enough said about that.

yesterday i managed to not go to school. but hey, i went to downtown to study okay. and i did. thou it`s only 2 chapters. AT LEAST. somehow, i felt that yesterday was a sinful day for me. honestly. shall not drag about it.

today. i woke up at 7 for school. darling grrlfwens waited til 7.45 for all 6 of us to go school together. imagine walking into the school at 8. cool. hoho. there won`t be another time anymore. after school, everyone quickly reserved whatever they wanted from the cozy corner. and there were people like syahidah, who took the sofa. lol. pity farhi thou. but it`s a good thing he gave in. heh. so syasya has a new sofa. it sure will look nice cos it`s FREE. lollies. so i managed to grab the pillow. that`ll be something i shall be nostalgic about. memories with 5A. ohh how i love the class. we must keep in touch okay people. *hugs* so anyway, there was physics mock exam and i was so sleepy that i slept. i didn`t know my head tilted to one side and islin had to kick my chair to wake me up. lollies. i was tired lorr. excuse me. soon after that, darling grrlfwens went to changi to break fast. i apologise to poocan for scaring her about the cat thingy. hoho. i was deeply embarrassed when there was a cat and i jumped onto a chair with shrieks from all of us. we sure had fun. then we headed to the beach for a while and left. i was agitated by then. argh. okay bla bla bla. reached home. shaz, about what happened in the bus, hush hush okay. it was nothing larh. something played back in my mind. i`m fine now =))

okay. faddie`s tired. i so wanna enter my blog. MUMMY!! shoot me.

ehh. i miss him lorr.

=))

2006-10-01T21:48:00.001+08:00

Hapi advanced 16th BDAE sayang!!

=))

2006-10-01T21:48:00.000+08:00

Hapi advanced 16th BDAE sayang!!

Basi pics

2006-09-26T15:12:00.000+08:00

Ciak

2006-09-25T12:04:00.000+08:00

Its been long since i blog here. But anw. Fad. I appologised fer not comin to skel. Bu babe, i miss eu sweets. =))So anw. Fad. I wan to dedicate to eu one song.. Check it ouut soon ok. Either at my blog or ours. Thx fer everything k. I love eu as much as i love myself. <33.>

2006-09-16T19:41:00.000+08:00

okay. great. i lost my previous entry. stupid fcuk. so anyway, this blog has been long dead. fcuk larh. i`ve written such a long entry. mofo. shithead. waste my bloody freaking time. okay cool. so anyway, faddie went to the beach with him in the morning. weee. yes, i had fun. =) blablabla i sent my sister to the mosque and met shaz. we went to downtown. supposedly, we suppose to meet darling grrlfwen syasya at 3-4pm. but then, yes, after such a long wait for like one and a half hours, she wasn`t there. who doesn`t get tired waiting for someone? arg. so yes, we left the place at 4.30. okay, i did call her home but don`t ask what happened. only darling shaz knows. hoho. secret okay shaz. hmm. i`m at my friend`s place. yes, FOOD. that`s what i`m here for. hoho. i`m planning to meet syasya later at night. can we can we? ohh. we neevr fail to meet at night whenever i`m here right? lollies. okay. i hear food calling my name. later.

2006-09-09T14:49:00.000+08:00

I don't mind spending some time Just hanging here with you Cuz I don't find too many guys That treat me like you do Those other guys all wanna take me for a ride But when I walk their talk is suicide Some people never get beyond their stupid pride But you can see the real me inside And I'm satisfied, Even though the gods are crazy Even though the stars are blind

If you show me real love baby I'll show you mine I can make you nice and naughty Be the devil and angel too Got a heart and soul and body Let's see what this love can do Baby i'm perfect for you My love, I could be your confidante Just one of your girlfriends But I know that love's what you want If tomorrow the world ends Why shouldn't we be with the one we really love? Now tell me who have you been dreaming of At night at home? ___________________________________________________ i ain`t tripping.

i`m just missing uu. i miss uu even more. _________________________________________________ baby ur all that i want.

when ur lying here in my arms.

i`m finding it hard to believe

we`re in heaven.

and love is all that i need.

and i found it there in ur heart.

it isn`t too hard to see.

we`re in heaven.

now nothing can change what uu mean to me.

there`s a lot that i can say.

2006-09-08T23:50:00.000+08:00

this is what ii did while waiting for my darling syasya =)

2006-09-08T23:48:00.000+08:00

2006-09-08T23:44:00.001+08:00

scene: beach.

2006-09-08T23:44:00.000+08:00

changi beach. =))

2006-09-04T12:01:00.000+08:00

happy birthday sweets

2006-09-03T00:37:00.000+08:00

she realised that she has been dreaming a lot lately.

okay whatever.

she found out something.

remember what she said: words are wanton? yes, they are wanton.

this is to him: why say all those when uu don`t mean it?

u`ve got her and yet uu said 'nevertheless, i still wait to gain ur trust, to have uu back in my arms' doesn`t sound that sound super familiar?

yes. she knows everything. =)) well, best wishes.

and now do uu know the reason why she always say: say it when uu mean it? yes, that`s the reason. and uu made her not to even guys more.

fcuk all those words.

damn it.

2006-09-02T23:00:00.000+08:00

hello

2006-09-02T22:59:00.003+08:00

smileeee

2006-09-02T22:59:00.002+08:00

ciakk

2006-09-02T22:59:00.001+08:00

yeahh?

2006-09-02T22:59:00.000+08:00

candid.

2006-09-02T22:58:00.000+08:00

wwwweeeeeeeeee

2006-09-01T13:12:00.001+08:00

this blog has been so not updated.

maybe it`s because we have our own respective blog,

and we neglect this blog.

ohh well.

so yeahh.

prelims have been so bad for me.

~~english paper 1~~ ~~english paper 2~~ ~~malay paper 1~~

~~malay paper 2 math paper 1~~

math paper 2

~~literature paper 1~~

literature paper 2

chemistry

physics

geography

~~social studies~~

d&t

As we move on, we remember. . .

2006-08-29T19:20:00.000+08:00

Ouh well. Been quite some tym since i blog here. Hmm. Maybe ive got my personalised blog. Tt`s it. But well. Not to worry. Cause i wun forget this blog. So. Anw. My life has been in great hopstle topsle. I seem to miss my fren. Yeah. I miss my abg wawal. Hell. I appologised to sayang dearest fer having this feeling okae. So. That dae wen i saw him in skewl made me fret about all this. But how come. Syasya and him suddenly become like this. I wonder. Is it a mistake i made. No. There isnt any mistakes or whatsoever. The only thing i knew was that he was kindda pissed off wen he figured out that i and my sayang dearest is getting closer. But see. Wen syasya and sayang dearest is getting closer, syasya n him is drifting apart. Y like that. . . . Yes. He is my shadow. My abg. I love him. Yes. I love him. And let me make this clear. Love as the love i have fer fadd and stuffs okae. The love i have fer sayang dearest is completely diff. Ok. Freak laa. But can i sae tt i miss him. Aside missing sayang dearest. I am missing my abg wawal. ))= Do eu tink im bad missing two guys at the same tym? Its up to eu to decide. Ive never been separated frm abg wawal fer like this. Besides the 2 weeks thgy and the post break-up thgy. But that was last year. Solid 2 mths since we saw each other again and patch. And broke off again. And remain as frens as i started off to see him as my bro and sth in my heart. And started to like this sweetie pie by the name of sayang dearest. Till den. We have never separate or lost contact. But it`s all happening now. And i just cannot move on with him by my side. Yes. I depended on him. But i move on. Den comes wen he depended on me. I helped him to move on. Now. im back to be dependent on him yet and again. And now. I am not able to do that once more. And i moved on with my life wen we totally like lost contact. So maybe. I have to do that. And i am doing it right now. But it hurts. Parting with someone eu really tresure and love and comfortable and everything laa. He is like my family. He noes everythg about me. And he is so3 close to me. And fugging ass. I miss NURUL. Yes. Akil birthdae is comin. Abg and adik birthdae is coming too. Nurul`s bdae is coming too. I wonder how NUrul is now. Does she even remember me? Does she still ask about me. Hmm. Pak busu is cruel. If he`s afraid of calling just because of my sister den. Knowing him. I noe that he will find me by othe source means. But i doubt so. So bottom line is that he has got someone new in his life. But that isnt fair at all. How do i managed to have a guy and at the same time establishing frenship with eu? Eu once promised me that no matter what which gerl comes into ur life, eu will sae this. "No matter what, deep down in my heart, a part of my heart belongs to NURSYAHIDAH BINTE MOHD SHOKRI." Eu liar. Eu lied. I am no longer important in ur life. Ur words are wanton MUhammad Shawal. Im trying to hate eu as time passes by. But i failed. Cause it`s been like 3 daes or so. I cried remembering eu. Its not fair. Eu may be happy while here i am shedding tears fer eu. What do i gain. See. I am reprimanding myself. And it only last fer few minutes. After that i will tink about eu again. Yes. The oni thg to forgt eu is to love sb as much as i can. But i cant. I am afraid to love sayang dearest as much. Yes love but now as much as sb could love his/her bf/gf/ I am not like the last tym sya. And tis happened because of eu Muhammad Shawal. Yes. I lose trust in love because of eu. Fer that. I am afraid to love again though i am trying and im happy to declare that i love my sayang dearest. But see. If my life doesnt turn out to be like this, i doubt i am what i am now. So i hope that i will be the last tym sya wen i am able and am free to love that sb as much as i can. Fuck. I have to admit that i feel so weak without eu by my side. The feeling is much worsen than of the last tyM. Being in this condition fer the 2nd ty, is much3 worse than it was before. But i hope eu are doing well. Send regards to ur family. I miss ur along. I miss ur mom. I miss abg sani. I miss nurul. I miss playing with her. Gawd. That cheeky girl. And fren. History hurts kan. And awak. Its september. Remember what happened to me? Thx to eu too. But it happened to me again. Ur words are bullshit dumbass. I noe. Ure happi with some gerl and has settle down. But it`s not fair. Remember what i go thru with sayang dearest because of eu. Now. Ure being selfish.

my secret is fatally gorgeous.

2006-08-25T14:01:00.000+08:00

arg. FINALLY i can get into a blog. but however, i can`t change the font. and sadly, i can`t even get into my OWN blog. freak larh. but nvm. so anyway, darling grrlfwen, HAPPY 6`S. love you bebeh. faddie`s in tech room right now. i`ve been switching computers just to BLOG. ohh! plainsunset`s performance is today!! go catch it okay. aha. poor thing i can`t go. firstly, i`m dead broke. now, i`m hungry and sleepy. he didn`t attend school today for whatever reason. i thought shaz and i was late but we weren`t. ehh. but actually, we were late but teacher let us off. FUHHH. and yes, shaz and i ran to school! aha! we did. okay stop it. shaz, have i told you that i dreamt of asyraf[acap] and razif kassim. aha. i don`t know why and it`s weird. but they were there in my dreams, playing XBOX. lol. i got up from bed angrily simply because i didn`t have a good night sleep. doinks. all thanks to my dear brother, he spoke on the phone with Godknowswho until 2 am? he was making so much noise and he was in MY room. i`m a sleepyhead or i`d rather be called, sleeping beauty. lame. syasya`s home already i think. i hope she`s excited. hoho. ohh. before i forget, HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY SYAZ & ANGEL. and HAPPY BELATED 16TH BIRTHDAY RAFIKA. school will close at 3.30 as the teachers have their teachers` day dinner at HYATT. awesome. okay i guess i shall get back to my work before i get caught. okay bye.

Fucked up.

2006-08-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

Fuhh. Ive been sprouting out profanities these days. Sths wrong with me. PMS? Not quite. CO0ming maybe. HAHA. Its 25th of the MONTH tml. And syasya`s sixth. Half a YEAR. That`s quite LONGgg. Im not quite myself lately. -___-" Tell me what has got into me. Maybe that? Fad`s rite though. I tink it`s that. But why still cant i? Shithead. I miss my sayang dearest. LOTS. "Happy sixth sayang." Im pissed. Fuck. Chiao. And we went home early todae after nite study. Sth i find it`s not fair. Fuck. Again. Sorri. Shup. ((= Tt made me smile. ``SYAsya-

((=

2006-08-23T23:33:00.000+08:00

I had fun in the bus. Wen otw to nite study. Fun. Fun. Sths wrong with me. See. Can i have more of that? ``Syasya-

Ciak

2006-08-12T20:35:00.000+08:00

Woo. Tis blog has beeen daead. Grr. So. Anw. I miss my sayang dearest larh. Miss him like hell. Grr. Fad! Fad! Help me yeah. *smack head* So anw. Slpng occupies my tym. And well. Im sad over my resulf . Uh shit! Ok im done. Tata.

``Syasya-

2006-08-10T14:44:00.000+08:00

faddie`s in school. weeee. well. shaz is beside me now. we`re suppose to do dnt but then but then. . haha. uu know us. we won`t do our work unless teacher is here. so anyway, i don`t know what`s becoming of me. everytime i eat, i feel like vomitting. arg. shaz just said: "aiyohh. fad. uu pregnant eh?" damn uu shaz. i`m not okay. i`m still a VIRGIN. wakkaka. okay. lame. let this be a short entry. go to http://ragdollnomore-.blogspot.com for more happening. and ohh! I LOVE 08AUGUST!! weeeee~ shaz missed out the fun. poor her. but at least she got to see the fireworks. right right? this friday and saturday.. fireworks.. wanna go? hmmm i think i end it here. update some other time. tata.

I miss here

2006-08-07T22:10:00.000+08:00

Alas. Im in here. Yes! Yes! Been soo3 long. Yeah i noe. I miss switheart. 4sure. Cant log in. Tts the problem. And it realli3 pissED me off. Yeah. S anw. I just came home. Yeah. Too many topic to blog on todae. So 1stly. Im gonna start on. Y i dun like toking to dearest darling otp now. I mean. Its been so3 super long rite. Yeah. I miss al tt. But sumtyms i have to learn hw to let go on sumthgs. Cn? Once blog about tt on my blog. So. I admit its kindda irritating. Wen all eu wanted to tok to was ur super3 darling. But ur darling may be busy with their new frens. U dun even noe hu she mixes with and so on. So pple chg. So i just hope that if i cld change the time. I want us. Me and my super3 darling. Tt no one cld ever replace. To be like the last tym us. I hope tt we wun grow up. So bottom line is that we wun meet new frens. LOL. Tts selfish. But true wat. New frens cum. Wat about the old. Its better i keep to myself now. Yeah. So daa. Wun elaborate much. More details bout my outing with Ali will be in my blog. Study laa to be exact. Was fun. Fun. Kan bolala. Sori ehk tercampak. Wakakaka. Bluek!! Miss my darling very3 much. Not forgetting. Syasya miss my sayang dearest laa. Its soo sad tt he didnt leave me any msg. At all. Watever. Still my miss towards him is on fire. Super lots. Tkcr to pple sya love.

``Syasya-

2006-08-05T14:12:00.000+08:00

she never thought of feeling this way,

but it`s inevitable to her.

nevertheless, she doesn`t want history to repeat.

she`s confused.

she doesn`t even know if it`s sincerity.

or is it just an act.

she doesn`t wanna know if his playing her.

she`s had enough of what has happened.

if ever she finds out that it`s all lies,

there goes her trust to others.

and the one to be blamed for,

is you.

040806

2006-08-04T23:28:00.000+08:00

school was fun today!! i love school, well, only today. firstly. photo taking was awesome. our class theme was grease lightning. cool aye? we were kinda vain. haha. we got preapared more than an hour before. so after school, there was chemistry remedial. i sat with regu. it was fun lorr. i didn`t pay attention. well, as always. he bullied me lorr. so i scribbled on his hands. weeee~ after chemistry rememdial, there`s math mock exam but syasya and i came at 3.30 when it actualy started at 2.30. and we handed in the paper at 4.30 which means we did the paper for an hour only. syasya and i then went to had our superb late lunch at mr prata. the service there is becoming worse. i mean it`s like we ordered potato and meat together with the noodle, then he said nvm go eat. shithead. so anyway, d&t was next til 9.45. okay i admit. i did my work for 10% and then 90% played catching with aidil. he started it all first okay. but it was fun thou. we practically ran around the whole school. tired, we went up to the hall. there, we met quek. haha. then mrs neo came out from the hall and asked what were we doing there. so we answered, we had d&t. so with enough courage, i ask "teacher, can we go in and have some food?" haha. thick skinned right? lol. she nodded and said "yes yes why not. there`s still a lot more=))" so we went in. lol. so we went to eat at the basketball court there. we had fun right? so i went home with him and shaz. but shaz was isolated. so we crapped. a lot. was fun fun. so the next time, he sends me home. lol. as if. lalaaa. so overall, i had a fun day today. =))

Lalalala

2006-07-30T09:33:00.000+08:00

Boo. I woke up early todae. So many task to be done todae. But being the lazy me. I noe it wouldnt. LOL. So anw fad. How was ur dae. Fri, Sat? gg well? Hope so okae. Ive been busy outside n didnt get the chance to kol eu. I shall kol eu later since maybe i wun be gg anywhere. Or late evening i shall mit my fren. Wee. Cross my finger and hope jadik. ((= So anw. Got nth to blog alrd. Bubbye-

``Syasya-

29o7o6

2006-07-29T16:48:00.000+08:00

fad`s home from school. i had d&t just now til 1++. it ended pretty early today. i thought i could complete it but i forgot to do one part. doinks. so i asked for aidil`s help to spray paint my base for me. hmmm. thanks yahh. [[sya. what action? i rushed down to downtown to meet uu but when i msg, uu didn`t reply, when i called, uu said uu just receive the call which is like at 10.15 when i actually called uu at 9.15?]] i sat a mc til nearing 10 then decided to go off since u didn`t return any of my msg or call. nonetheless, i bumped into ahmad, asyraf and razif. we smiled and fullstop. i was pretty tired yesterday and i slept early. ohh yeah. to my surprise, iskandar called me yesterday. he asked me if i`m free today to go to the concert. i`m sorry i`m not free. ohh! i saw him during my d&t. but nvm. skip that part. nothing happened. well, after long, i saw him. shall not say anymore. yesterday thingy went fine but i felt scared of cos. shaz accompanied me cos syasya was busy. the officer at the guard house was SUPER CUTE!! seriously. he asked what happened and all but i was 'mesmerized' by his looks. haha. joking. his charming! okay stop it. so anyway, that 'talk' lasted for an hour or so. now i know what to do every saturday. watch soccer! wakakkaa. serious. most probably, after d&t, i`ll watch them play. i`m looking forward for the upcoming match. wish uu luck aight. ali, play like a pro[like me. ahem] must win okay? and pls pls pls. don`t find fault. the other team is like those who loves to find fault. so refrain from fighting okay. =)) well, i wanna take a nap. i`m tired.

Lalala

2006-07-29T12:53:00.000+08:00

Fad! U eksyen. Gt hp never msg me. Nvr kol me. Hmph. So how`s everythg? Settled? Anw. YEsterdae i tot can mit fer a while. But. Nah its okay. Im going to ITE Simei soon. Wanna come? Dere`s perfomance going on. Laa. Im gg with abg wawal. N sayang dearest is totally cool with it. Im gg to behave okay. I swear i will. Coz.. I love him lor. Yes! Yes! I do. ((=

Wei. Tis blog is totally dead. Im sori cause i dun have tge tym to blog already. Sigh. Seriously. Im very busy. But im not busy studying. See. Im still having fun. Prelims are weeks away. And im scared. Ive not yet revise on anything. Gosh. Argh! That sucks.

Ouh freak. Im down with the flu. Headaches. N cold. Gawd help me. Im afraid if sayang dearest got my flu. LOL. I hope not. So anythg. He`s such a darling. I lovelove him. Yes i love him. So he sang yesterdae. Wanted to record it but he did bot let me to. So i heard him sang. Nice voice. Haa. Well. Tell me. Even if that someone voice sounded horrible. But that`s ur special someone. His voice will definitely sound melodious enuf. True? But his was nice okay. C arr hus matair. LOL. Jk.

I guess i`ll stop hanging ard with amy and co. But i miss dem laa. I will. We shall c how laa okay. Fer now. I wan to play the com fer a while. Its gg to be late alrd. I have to mit abg wawal at 2;30. I hope i wun be late oky. Wee. I miss my sayang dearest. I miss my sayang dearest. Smwah! BIG hugs. Syg. Im sick. I guess. ))=

``Syasya-

reality check.

2006-07-27T19:46:00.000+08:00

a l o h a ` ! the blog seems dead. so anyway, i`ll be posting up at short entry cos i`m not suppose to use the computer now. since they are all praying, i take advantage lorr. hey! it`s 27!! weeee~ school was super tiring. ater school, we had physics practical and then i went for my d&t. i hope i can finish it by saturday? but impossible larh. i have yet to spray paint and all. grr. wish me luck, guys. i`ve just had my dinner. yummy. my computer`s lagging. grr. i heard that the sec 4na has night study from 4pm to 9pm from monday to friday. fooohh. best of luck people. haha. there`s night study tmr. ohh shoot. i don`t want tmr to come. it`s gonna be a disaster. damn it. i can`t escape from it. somehow, i have to face it. reality check. ~~ps: i miss uu.~~

((=

2006-07-24T10:23:00.001+08:00

Wee. Having malay lessons now. Fun indeed. Since we finished out stufs. We are able to play the com. And i saw my sayang dearest. Wee. N i sooo miss him. Shall sum everything up. Anw. Yesterdae syasya went to cityhall agayn. Wee. Now that place is my playground i guess. So. Anw. There`s tis guy hu i find kinda irritating. Grr. But well. Swear. He`s my fwen. Anw. Yesterdae happenings was like tis. After cityhall, i met fad. Was suprised wen she agreed. Cause we dun reali hang ard animore. Supposedly, we are to study but ended up. We played pool. Wee. Its a draw. Fair game. Wee. Was fun laaa. Since it`s been long since i went out with my dear faddie. Anw. During the pool. It was not that packed. But in the middle of the game, faddie was being called. And i tot sb nak fight with her. But guess wat?! That girl hu called her is/was fad`s fwen. Her fwen wanted my number. LOL. Crazy!! Haa. But like duh. I didnt give it out easily okay. But let me comment. The fair guy is cute. Honestly. He`s cute. Fad noes kan. AAfter pool, went to eat sundae. Yummeh. Wee. Shall eat some more okae. We hang ard at the bstop fer a while. Skali saw faddie`s mom n fwens. I was scared lor cause i have to take the same bus as them. Hahaha. Grr.

After that, went to tamp to take 69. And there`s this golden-haired guy came to me. WTH! I hate laa al tis. Cant be bothered. I guess that todae itself, there`s like 4 guys came to me to ask fer my number. Lalala. No wae. I love my sayang dearest still. Like he said. He `s hurt if someone he loves betrayed him. I mean. I dun wan to betray him. N i dun wan him to lose his trust in me. Cause swear. I do love him. ((=

And at nite, i hog on the phone with sayang dearest. Wee. Fun. Fun. Super fun. If oni there isnt ani skewl todae. Laa.But i noe he misses me a lottttttttttttttt. As he said. But wat can we do. Besides complaining. Lalala.

Ok. Im done. Sayang dearest just messaged me saying he miss me. Wee. Study hard n concentrate k sayang. Chiayou. Love eu baby. Miss eu. Miss eu. Miss eu. Miss eu. Muaahzz.

And sayang. Its 25 tml. Here`s an advanced 5 MONTHLY ANNIVERSARY. Haa. LOL. I love him. I swear that i love him. Even more?

Okay gtg. Lala

``Syasya-

((=

2006-07-24T10:23:00.000+08:00

Ok. Im done. Sayang dearest just messaged me saying he miss me. Wee. Study hard n concentrate k sayang. Chiayou. Love eu baby. Miss eu. Miss eu. Miss eu. Miss eu. Muaahzz.

And sayang. Its 25 tml. Here`s an advanced 5 MONTHLY ANNIVERSARY. Haa. LOL. I love him. I swear that i love him. Even more?

Okay gtg. Lala

``Syasya-

2006-07-23T14:43:00.000+08:00

syasya&khairul

2006-07-23T14:39:00.000+08:00

aren`t they sweet? =))

2006-07-23T14:36:00.000+08:00

the sweethearts coincidence.

2006-07-23T14:33:00.000+08:00

-us-

2006-07-23T14:30:00.000+08:00

ib&sya

2006-07-23T14:28:00.000+08:00

syasya&faiz

2006-07-23T14:26:00.000+08:00

yuetting&faddie

2006-07-23T14:23:00.000+08:00

islin&faddie

2006-07-23T14:22:00.000+08:00

dyla&syasya

2006-07-23T14:18:00.000+08:00

faddie&ana-

2006-07-23T14:16:00.000+08:00

shamir&syasya-

#16

2006-07-23T14:06:00.000+08:00

perhaps. perhaps. perhaps.

#15

2006-07-23T13:58:00.000+08:00

aidil&syasya-

#14

2006-07-23T13:42:00.000+08:00

-faddie*syasya-

#13

2006-07-23T13:40:00.000+08:00

-syasya.solo-

#12

2006-07-23T13:36:00.000+08:00

candid

#11

2006-07-23T13:33:00.000+08:00

-syasya-

#10

2006-07-23T13:30:00.000+08:00

sher&syaa.

#9

2006-07-23T13:27:00.000+08:00

syasya&poovan. =))

#8

2006-07-23T13:24:00.000+08:00

poovan&faddie. weee~

#7

2006-07-23T13:22:00.000+08:00

najib&syasya. hugs.

#6

2006-07-23T13:18:00.000+08:00

faddie&jiawei. kiss me.

#5

2006-07-23T13:10:00.000+08:00

syasya&jiawei.loves.

#4

2006-07-23T13:08:00.000+08:00

no doubt, we <3>

#3

2006-07-23T13:05:00.000+08:00

najib&faddie*[[don`t we look good? *winks*]]

#2

2006-07-23T13:02:00.000+08:00

faddie*aidil* [[ps.ain`t he cute?]]

#1

2006-07-23T12:55:00.000+08:00

syasya*

23o7o6

2006-07-23T12:33:00.000+08:00

i had a long day yesterday. firstly, i rushed to school for d&t. i left school at almost 2.30pm. Shaz wanted to borrow library books so i accompanied her and something happened while i was alone. [[only syasya knows *winks* secret okay syaa?]] i was aimlessly walking around. i didn`t want to go home cos it was so early. i have to go out on saturdays even if i`m going out to school. hello, it`s saturday. so decided to go to mango field cos there was a match. eventually, it ended up several people getting hurt. my borther sprained his ankle but look on the bright side, u won! wakaka. i didn`t know ali was there. so he has expanded his circle of friends. weee~ =)) i was bueing bullied in the bus. grr. so anyway, i`m currently uploading the pictures which is like so damn bloody slow lorr. my friend has a problem yesterday. tried to talk to him and cheer him up but to no avail. hey, look on the bright side of life okay? *smile* yesterday was also another cam-whoring day for me =) i was taking picture of us and i forgot to take picture of the match. doinks. so anyway, picture`s will be posted soon. =)) ohh. my darling syasya called me. weee. after so long, we finally hog on the phone. miss euu too.

LC

2006-07-17T16:04:00.000+08:00

Fad!! Good luck fer ur LC. Chiayou!! ((= See ya in skewl..

``Syasya-

sigh*

2006-07-17T14:11:00.000+08:00

17o7o7. i thought i was gonna be late for school but not. i missed one freaking traffic light and then i had to wait for the 7 o'clock bus -_-" so anyway, the day started fine. early in the morning, chocolates entered my mouth. yummy yummy. choc makes my day. i think something`s wrong with syasya. ohh well. anyway, i thought we were suppose to chill out somewhere? i said to teacher i had to go home asap cos thought we were going to hang out as planned. but then but then. whatever larhh. so yeahh. i managed to escape d&t. well, despite whatever teacher had reprimaded me, i`m still being stubborn. my day`s gonna be ruin. i don`t know why. i have a confession to make. syasya and i are not as close as last time. seriously. may be it`s bacause of friends? i don`t know. we`re only seen as best friends during school time. otherwise, not. we barely contact. =(( even in class, we don`t really communicate.ohh well. i can`t do anything. but as long as she`s happy and fine with it, then good for her larh. she has loads of other people too.

17o7o7.

2006-07-16T10:51:00.000+08:00

17o7o7. i woke up at almost nine and quickly showered to go to school. i don`t know why but i was kinda excited to go to school. haha. but whatever. ibu sent me and shaz. ad, poor thing. she had to sit beside the security guard cos she was wearing slippers and not allowed to enter the school compound. so shaz came to the rescue. she brought her shoes. dnt was not bad afterall thou i must admit it was kinda boring. at least i got to drill and tap. one accomplishment, don`t uu think? okay. when i was eager to go home, i dropped my screw. so i bend down and reached for it. being careless, i hurt myself. my knee hit hard on the compressor and now uu can see a hole there. seriously. i mean not at the compressor larh! and my knee. it`s still bleeding but not as much. and mr tan was like "are uu okay? need to go hospital or not?" and laughs. duhh. it`s not as if i`m gonna die or something but thank uu for being caring =). shaz and i didn`t went home straight. we went to tampines mall and century square. i went to popular and took all the stuff that i wanted and it cost almost 17 dollars. i was like wtf. so i put back the unneccessary stuff and tokk ath 6 dollars stuff. i saw miza! haha. now i so want that PONY bag. it turns me on! and that shirt! wooooooo! but money so no talk. i reached home close to 5. stoopid bus number 3 broke down. shaz was lucky that that was her stop. and stoopid door didn`t open. so i had to walk a longer route. i had enough of walking for the past 2 consecutive days! i was damn hungry. that made me double mad. as soon as i reached home, i ate whatever my mum left me. there was only me and my dad at home. i was watching tv and then my mum came up and asked me to shower. i tagged along with my mum and dad, and her friends. we went to eat ayam penyet at changi. eat again. yummy. then i headed to esplanade. there was dre, azhar, hariz, fir, syazana and elnah. i saw ib and faris botak. i saw nana! weee. i saw several people larh. i left esplanade at 11? around there i think. so we separated from fir, syaz and elnah. we went to tamp. there was something going on. so eventually, i reached home at 12.20. i had to go to bed quickly so that my dad didn`t know i went out. fuhh. ohh, i miss syasya.

faddie`s confessions-

2006-07-15T00:53:00.000+08:00

what`s up? i know we haven`t spoken for a while. but i was thinking about uu. and it kinda made me smile. so many things to say. and i`ll put them in a letter. thought it might be easier. the words might come out better. so many things i wanna know the answers to. wish i could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story of uu and me. don`t uu know i`ve tried and i`ve tried. to get uu out my mind. but it don`t get no better. as each day goes by. and i`m lost and confused. i`ve got nothing to lose. hope to hear from you soon. P.S. i`m still not over uu. assembly was awesome. dance, choir and dre`s performance. nice nice. =) u look good thou *winks* i`m feeling exhausted and lethargic. i`m going off to bed now. such a freaking short entry. ohh. i so wanna go to baybeats tmr!! but too bad. i can`t. DAMN. kaylarh i guess i update when i`m free again. good night good night. ps: ii miss euu.

Yummeh.

2006-07-12T22:39:00.000+08:00

Boo. Wee. Todae. Went out. Was fun. But ending was horrible. And i meant it. Disaster. So. I filled my tummy to the brim. But it was still not full though. But oklaa.. Went to eat Seoul Garden. He paid fer it anw. Yeah. He insisted. So well i agreed. We took neoprints. LOL. After soo long. Was nice though. But we are dumb as ever cause we totally screwed up the money as we do not know how to operate that machine with too many button on it. LOL. Ou yeah. Thx okay.. ((= After that head to pool. Wee. After so long since i hold that cue. Wakaka. Anw. At the end of it. I so soo agitated that i scold profinities. One of them is. Kikilala Mak. Im sori. But i doesnt mean to scold eu. Sori. Guilt overcome me. Tsk. Im sorri. Shall update the neoprints some dae due to technical problems. And maybe. Im gonna mit my lovely bro tml. Wee. Yeah. He`s coming to skewl. Wee. Just hope that sayang dearest wun mind. ((= And so i miss him. My ayang dearest. Muackz!

``Syasya-

2006-07-11T18:56:00.000+08:00

Wee. Im meet him todae. ((= Hapi. I miss him super lots.

My abg.

2006-07-11T18:44:00.000+08:00

grr

2006-07-10T20:02:00.000+08:00

Another dae of fucked-UP life. Im tired. Im filled with hatred. Sorrowness filled my heart. Cant take all tis animore. I miss eu. Yes eu. And EU. I got eu back. And thx to All Mighty fer that. U raised my hopes. Yet eu r the one hu shattered it time and again. Cum to tink again. Syasya da alwaez face w all tis stuffs. Yeah i do have tis feeling that im just someone hu can be dere if he needs. BUt not exactly being de role of hu i am suppose to be in reality. Im sick and tired of having the feelings of being played. OK im done. -_____-" And to eu. I guess. U will be fine too w/o me. I`ll walk on my own. I`ll learn. I guess u dun relise how much i miss eu too. Im filled with too much of ego. Go. Go. She will be dere, yeah. Im not there for far too long. Yeah. Im drifting myself apart from all tis. I pray fervently that i will be alright. Save this thg between me and eu. I dun want it to slipped away from me. And that goes the same to eu. But well. U`re happi now.

Im glad. ((=

I miss eu. I miss eu. And i miss myself.

``Syasya-

2006-07-09T19:41:00.000+08:00

a l o h a ` ! yesterday, faddie went to the airport. alone =) it was more of a 'letting everything go' time rather than study. i swear i looked at the planes. i just wish i could fly. wakakaa. lame. so yeahh. my mum`s friends came over for karaoke. seriously. they have been friends for 3 decades! awesome. we shall last as long as them okay syasya? =)) i tried to stay awake to watch portugal and germany`s match but i pity my eyes. so anyway, germany won! woohooo. i guess italy`s gonna be the champion. i think so. france win my lunk throughout the game, ehk? so anyway, i went for religious class just now and boy, last 2 period was fun! i like! we practically laughed our ass out. one sad thing, she couldn`t teach us anymore. i didn`t know she works as a counsellor. so now i guess i know who to turn to! ohh yeahh. syasya pratically fell of from her seat in the bus! literally. wakakakkaka. damn funny lorr. should have video it. but then again, it`s wrong. so no no. syasya, something`s bothering uu right? i know. and since when did you become secretive huh? don`t be like me okay. i know it hurts to be 'suffering' alone. been there, done that. so what`s up girl? ohh. food`s here. taa.

Songs

2006-07-05T16:22:00.000+08:00

Story of my life searching for the right but it keeps avoiding me sorrow in my soul

cause it seems that wrong really loves my company

Hes more than a man

and this is more than love the reason that the sky is blue the clouds are rolling in because i'm gone again and to him i just can't be true

and i know that he knows i'm unfaithful and it kills him inside to know that i am happy with some other guy i can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore i don't wanna be the reason why everytime i walk out the door i see him die a little more inside i don't wanna hurt him anymore i don't wanna take away his life i don't wanna be... a murderer

i feel it in the air as i'm doing my hair preparing for another day a kiss up on my cheek he's here reluctantly as if i'm gonna be out late i say i won't be long just hanging with the girls a lie i didn't have to tel lbecause we both know where i'm about to go and we know it very well

cause i know that he knows i'm unfaithful and it kills him inside to know that i am happy with some other guy i can see him dying

i don't wanna do this anymore i don't wanna be the reason why everytime i walk out the door i see him die a little more inside i don't wanna hurt him anymore i don't wanna take away his life i don't wanna be...

a murderer

our love, his trust

i might as well take a gun and put it to his head get it over with i don't wanna do this anymore (anymore)

i don't wanna do this anymore i don't wanna be the reason why everytime i walk out the doori see him die a little more inside i don't wanna hurt him anymore i don't wanna take away his life i don't wanna be...

a murderer (a murderer)

no no no no yeah yeah yeah

``Syasya-

Stress.

2006-07-05T15:19:00.000+08:00

The blog is dead. Period. -___-" A lot of thgs have been happening lately. And one of those is about some anoynomous person. And i swear that i am not on track to those gossips that i heard recently. Its so alien to me. And i swear that it is all about mistaken identity who bad-mouthed me? I dont know what is happening but im feeling that she has sth against me. My instict tells me so. And its because of the fact that she reacted so coldly against me. The stares i received lately. Y is she reacting in such way that really makes uncomfortable. I do have emotional feelings too. Tt`s why i can sense that something is really amiss. Hu ever the MOFO is, i hope one dae it will be revealed. Its okay if this tym im the one who has to face ths shits that i never did. What goes around will difinitely comes around. And i want that MOFO to get his/her shits back like how i face it. Yeah. But maybe. Am i just perasan? Feeling she`s toking to me but actually it was sb else? Maybe.

Its depressing wenn u are living in world of fake-NESS.

I hope tis wun affect me in any way. ((=

And other matter is about me feeling ever sooo guily. Im sorri to him. No its just words from them. And thx eu fer everythg. Shall not elaborate. And im soo sori fer the sorrows i gave eu. However. I love eu sayang. Sori i hurt eu. And i am ever so glad to have eu and somedae i noe that eu will be back in my arms. ANd i missing eu ever so much. I love eu. Yes i do. And thx sayang fer loving me. Yeah i can sense tat u`d wanted to go, slipping away from me. I tot u wld. And i realli tot that wae. But it never happened tt wae. Im so glad it`s not like that. I hurt eu but u willingly wanted me back time and again. U have left a great impact in me. And sayang. I want eu to know that i love eu baby. I love eu soo much. Pls. I hope that tis tym it will turn back to normal. And the love eu have fer me will never decreased. All my life, i prayed fer sb like eu. I feel loved. Yeah. Thx syg fer tt.

``Syasya-

2006-07-04T22:32:00.000+08:00

the blog seems dead without syasya`s entries =) well, what can i say? many things have been happening lately. and i mean it. a lot of things. so i guess after everything goes back to normal, the blog will also go back to normal. doinks` -_-"

Pics of US.

2006-07-03T10:44:00.000+08:00

Tt`s abg and adek. <3> He was trying to smile- Too LATE.((= He was HUNGRY laaa. Cian dier.. LOL BlurreD- Ok smile. It`s SYASYA N WAWAL I LOIKE this best. Shiok sendiri in toilet. He was HURT. Sorri.

``Syasya-

Out with Mamat Awal

2006-07-03T09:56:00.000+08:00

Yesterdae was too tired to posst an entry. So. Finally. Went to City Hall with my dearest abg wawal. Yeah. He asked me out for that. And first tot, i tot i want to give it a miss though my heart was heavy. But finally, i did go. Wee ((= So i wore tis white top with a jeans and tis handbag. He fetched me fom my home. Swit. Gentleman. Told him just to meet me at small mac but he insisted. So thx. And. Upon seeing him, he was shocked. I dunnoe how to explain. In awe. That`s what he said. Nonsen oni. So. To sum up. Was glad tt i can go out with him. ((=

We wanted to visit the MERLION. But he was 'bathing.' So no merlion. Next tym shall go again. Thx fer knocking some sense in me yesterdae. Thx. Will eu be dere? Seriously. I dun wan to be dependent on eu like i am the last tym. Im learning nt to be one. Thx fer ur concern. I shall reconsider about that. But i do miss those times. Airports. Library. McDonalds. It`s been long since they last see us. Haa. LOL.

He has a gold of heart. I shall agree with that statement. So. Saw Yuet Ting at the BK while at there itself. Finally. My doubts have been resolved. I dunno hu to believe still. So. I shall be immune to everythg. I dun wan to belive his explanation. So. We saw Gladyn!!!!!!! She is like sooo pretty. And bo. I do miss her a lot laaa.. We close sei last tym. But now. Not anymore. So she`s working at Robinson. Chatted with her fer a while. Nice chat and nice laugh. ((= Ok daa. Pictures up soon.. ((=

``Syasya-

2006-07-01T22:37:00.000+08:00

o1o7o6- cross country. HAHA. unexpected. congrats to SYASYA and SHAZ. *big hug* after cross country, i went home to change and take money. a minute later, i was out. met syasya, shaz and ad for a meal. damn. i haven`t eat since yst night. but i got 11 hours of sleep yesterday!! weeeeeee~ from 8pm to 7.10am. haha`! awesome. and i didn`t even eat until just now morning. and i filled my stomach with coke first. now i`m down with gastric. weeeee~ now it hurts. a lot. so anyway, syasya and shaz came over to have movie marathon. but in the end, i ended up in talking marathon, syasya ended up in sleeping marathon and shaz ended up in computer marathon. HAHAA~ scary movie 4 was a boredom. right? or is it me who didn`t concentrate. hmmm. i think so. i`m so lethargic. arghh. didn`t even get my eyes to close after cross country. damn it. i think i go get some sleep. i need a hug =(

Wats up.

2006-06-30T20:44:00.000+08:00

So i manage to persuade my ayah to let me use the com. Thx dad. ((= Hmm. I have to blog secretly cause i told them that i want to do my skewl project. Yeah. My modemn has been confiscated. Those siblings of mine do not let me use the internet animore since i dun give dem 12 bucks. Pathetic me. But well hu cares. So im wondering what`s up with sayang dearest? He seems to be in a bad mood. He`s been putting up with a long face. And gee. I miss him. Yes. I do. I do. And tml is the cross coutry. I hope my sayang dearest will get a placing. I wish. I wish. And yeah i will be going to pasir sirs park with him tml. Wee. So early in the morning im able to see him. Wee. Ok da. Till den. Dada miss de

``Syasya-

Down.Down.

2006-06-29T20:04:00.000+08:00

Im bruised and battered by his words. Tears and shattered nw it hurts. Lalala. Well. Im exaggerating. LOL. But well. That was the first tym i guess he practically raised his voice and i felt a lil upset. YeAH. Im being so pathetic. I noe. -____-" But. Well. So well. He had never raised his voice. But that was in a joking manner. I noe. Or it was some kind of being LOUD. Cause that`s him. I noe. But just now. He was forcing me to tell him sth that i said to forget him. So that makes him mad? Sori. But eu. No nid to raised ur voice can? Okay. This is the DE FIRST TYM ever after 4 months 4 daez. Well. Obviously. There`s more to come. Maybe. So. Eww.. Dada HATE people raising their voice at me. Uh fcuk! Sori. Profinities not said to eu. But well. What goes ard, comes ard. I noe. I noe. I did raised my voice at abg wawal the last tym. So here. Finally. Ive got it back. I guess i noe how it feels. Sb raising ur voice. And that sb is the one eu love? WTF. Okay im done. Gtg.

``Syasya-

2006-06-28T20:36:00.000+08:00

hello bloggie. it`s been super long since i last blog here. wooopss. i admit that school was fun today but minus the part where i was late. i went to school with shaz and dre. i was the earliest! i waited for shaz for like 15 minutes! but nvm =)). we walked to downtown east bus stop and by the time dre reached was like hmmm 7++ already. but again, nvm. =)) so the three of us were late. but it`s okay. dre=action! hmphhff!! syasya dearest and i did 'art', our finest creaction for one and a half hour. we practically drew on each other`s hand. wakakaa. syasya drew one BIG flower, and i mean it, BIG, on my left hand and i really looked like aci. wakakkaa. the colour of the flower contrast the tone of my skin. so then it was my turn for revenge. i drew a big heart shape and wrote "i love singapore" wakakaa. we coloured our fingernails and all. gosh. chemistry lesson was fun! we blew the elastic balloon. u know the small little tiny packet that comes with the tiny straw. yeahh. syasya went to me and said "fad, take off ur specs" and then PHHHAAAMMM! she bloody smacked the balloon right on my face. english lesson was awesome! we had this kinda debate thingy. cool. i went for d&t at 3.45pm and i left at 4.20pm. wakakaa. and teacher caught me. this is what he said or should i say, have been saying : "where are u going? what have u done? u ahhh.. i don`t think u can complete ur artefact. u still have the mechanism to work on. . . . .. " and then walks away. no doubt that he don`t care about me anymore. hahaks. i`m wondering why am i having this headache practically EVERYDAY. honestly. it keeps on spinning and i feel so bad. i feel like eating half a dozen of panadol. wakkakaa. it`s been on for 3 consecutive days lorr. argh.

HaveD fun

2006-06-27T00:13:00.000+08:00

So. I just came back from airport. Yeah. It`s late. But i was having fun at the same tym doing my hws. But didnt manage to complete it. But im proud to say tt im done with my compre. ((= So anw. Thx fad. Fer the meal. So. Yeah. I went to skewl with my sayang dearest. Haa. One thg im afraid is that

we hold hands though we wear our skewl uniform.

Yeah. I do feel uncomfortable doing that.. But he would alwaes want to hold my hand. Hee. But its okay. But wat if my frens spot us. OMG. So yeah. I was missing him like hell just now during chemistry. So i messaged him. Haa. Dunnoe whats rong with me. But sure i do feel tt wae. And i miss his long embracement. And i laughed a lot todae. Thx to fad. Hey. Nice hairstyle gal. LOL. Just kidding okae. No hard feelings okae? So. We camwhore todae. Not much. But pictures wun be posted. Cz my dearest fadiah is LAZY to upload. And it wld be AGES fer her to send it to me via msn. Grr. Hm. Klaa. Fer now. Tts it. Cant blog ani longer. Im tired.

``Syasya-

..

2006-06-25T23:15:00.000+08:00

Well. Tis blog seems dead. It`s oni me hu alwaez updating. Well. So. Got nth much to said. I did went out todae. Meet Hidayah. Went to cck. Boon lay. Got her 3 guy frens. They wanted my numberr. But i refused. So any. Just now. There`s deze body builder cum model came to me. He gave his name card. And asked me to kol him. OMG. Its real laa. And sori dayak. Dun be jealous. Im not interested. Anw. Todae is the 25th laa. Dada wanna wish sayang dearest a veri HAPI 4TH MONTH sayang. ((= Okay daa. No need to elaborate. Short and simple.

``Syasya-

Wee. ((=

2006-06-25T00:12:00.000+08:00

So. Yeah. Alas. Im back. My feet is aching LIKE hell. OMG. It was fun todae. My back`s aching. My cheek`s tired of laughing. And my stomach is soo full. So. I went home late. And i just reaches home from a dae of galore. Wee. It`s been soo long since i pamper myself like todae. And i got so many things to blog. But maybe i`ll keep it short. But i have the habits of writting long entry. Wee. I tok a lot. Tt`s why. Haa. ((= So anw. Went out fom house around 11 plus. Wee. I was awaken by them. Gee. U should have mercy on me okay. Im tired laa amy. And i skipped my english class todae. But i met my fwens. So there are amy. Her super-cute guy, mamat. Haa. Acap. Haris. Maggie. Ayu. Sarah. Ifah. And me. So. yeah. It`s havoc. Super kecoh. And nice going out with dem. Planned to go to jurong. And yeah. I`m dark. AGain. Alaaa.. WEnt fer a swim. It was fun laaaaaaaaaa.. ((= Money spent like water. Hmph. So. Reaached there around 1pm. We were like small kids. Haa. And amy and mamat. Doesnt seem like an item. MOre to frens laa sei. But was cool to see dem like that. ((= They get along soo well. And from there. I started to miss my sayang dearest like hell. Tsk. I wish he was dere. But no. That`s not possible. So. We changed asap. Cause we are like jakun kids. Ifah likes to exaggerate. Haa. Tt gerl. And hey. I got the same personality as Haris. Cool uh sei. Was fun. But sth happened. While we were enjoying ourselves in the lazy pool, there`s this group of guys. Taking pictures of me. OMFG. I didnt notice it until Haris came to me. And fcuking hell. Obviously i was MAD. That Haris acted as my 'guy.' He went beside me. Trying to be close to me. But wei. Pls. No wae..... I apprecite it a lot okay. Thx anw fren. But. No wae uh sei. Sayang dearest would be dissapointed if he noes. But i will tell him some dae. But i swear nth happens. Cause i quickly went to amy, sarah and ayu. They became my bodyguards. ((= Thx peeps. So my mood spoilt. Decided to sit around at the 'long chair.' I went alone at 1st. I didnt want to spoil the other`s mood. So i went away silently. Hmm. But i did told dem my whereabouts. So they continue swimming while i was roaming by myself. But suddenly. Few minutes later, Haris came along not far behind me. Walau. That guy. And he was a thoughful fren. He dont want the mats to be a nuisance to me. So he followed me. Ure forgiven. ((= Thx anw. So. We chatted from dere. He asked me lots of questions. Gee. WTH. He asked if im attached. And yeah. I told him i am. Sadly. He appologized. Haa. He told me that he`s feeling guilt fom behaving like that. Trying to make the 1st move and trying to be close to me. So he`s forgiven. Yeah. But at least ure not a despo. I would sae. But i have to admit that he`s nice. But by then, i realised abg wawal`s word. 'Guys will be nice to eu if they have ulterior motive.' Well, it`s true though. So. That`s the major thg that happened while we are swimming. But after that. Im okay. And we decided to swim back. Wee. So. The WAVES are super nice. Played 'shark' in the water. Haa. Funnn laa. So. In there too, there`s this group of guys asked for my, sarah`s, amy`s number. WTH. Im beginning to feel irritated by these merepek stuffs. Kenal-kenal thingy. OMG. Gatal laa sei. Okay. There`s cute guys. Many of them just now. And some of them asked fer my number. But pls lor. Think of it again. If they dare to ask mine number. How many girls b4 me they ever asked? But sarah gave her number to 1 of the cute guys. Haa. I simply said to dem. Im sorri. Im attached o a great gut. Haa. And i walked away. So yeah. They said im sooo sombong. So what? I dun want to betray the trust sayang dearest have in me. So i dun dare to play behind his back. See. Im a good girl. ((= So yeah. And we went home from the complex at 8. Haa. Kene halau laa sei. ((= We are a bunch of notorious kids. But we do have fun. Thx to us. The kecho-RABLE. And to sarah`s suprise. That guy messaged her. And guess what? That guy`s fren. Yg asked fer my number. Asked fer my number again thru sarah. And she told me. And seriously. I said no. Sori laaa. Yeah i noe u said, just to make frens. But. No laa. It`s not rite anw. 1st 1st fren. After that. U never noe? And i dun want because of me and u are frens, somedae. Dada and sayang dearest will drift apart. Pls. No. So i have to think of the possibilities. So after that. We headed to maride parade. Lepak at starbucks. Haaa.. Mak. Bising laa sei kite. ((= The food is nice. I ate spaghetti with extra sauce. And that latte is uhmm. Yummeh. And the price. Fuh. So i spent near to $38 just at the starbucks itself. So yeah. We all looked like spoilt and rick kids. Haa. I admit. The wae we dressed. The wae we present ourselves. So yeah. We planned what to wear earlier on. ((= Those glasses. Hats. Haa. We let down our hair fer a dae. Wee. So. Maggie stil have the energy to shop. Ate New Zealand`s ice-cream. Yummeh. So. And guess hu i saw???? I saw iqah laa. Hmph. She worked at MANGO. OMFG. Hey. Saye nk sei keje at there. Hmph. Tak fair. So i introduce them to iqah. They get along very well. Iqah, one dae i bring eu out with amy and co okay? ((= See. Tt`s my habit. I LOVE to introduce my fren to my other frens. Shiok. Takmu lokek kawan. . . . But sadly, mamat and acap dun realli like iqah`s . I mean. They saw her on 1st impression basis. Well guys. Loosen urself up laa. She`s not bad after all okae. So at parkwae parade. We had fun. I love to go shopping with maggie. Wee. She has great taste. Same as mine. So. I nearly bought myself a LEVI`S super loot cut jeans. But well. I short of $20 bucks. So decided not to. Sheesh. Girlfrens and guyfrens wanted to lend me their money. But i said no. But i want that jeans badly. So maybe not my luck tis tym. It`s okay den. ((= I was happy still after that. So anw. Ifah and co commented that i like to roam myself alone. Wee. Haa. Yeah. Yeah. Several tym. They had to pulled me along with dem. Sweet of those girlfwens. Holding my hand like im one of those small littele kids. Haa. ((= They are afraid that some bad people would come and snatch me away. Haa. How cute kan. But wen we are at ISETAN. I went to the billabong section. While the rest is at the sports section. Guess hu i saw? Hmm. i saw nazri and ejah. MAk ai. Long sei they together. Imagine spending 4 yars with the same guy/girl. Haa. That`s bad. But well. I hope naz and ejah will be happi forever and alwaes. Wee. So naz is such a darling. He bought fer ejah a billabong handbag that cost $59. Fuhh. Yeah. He bought fer her that. Mak. So well. He did said sth that he`s pocked is koyak. Well. Im wondering. Hard ke ade gerl. I mean. Da lots of tym i heard pple commenting that having a girl would cost eu more money. Hmm. *tinking* I should ask sayang dearest about that one dae. LOL. So. Ejah is nice laa. Naz ajak me go out with dem one dae. Fuhh. One dae laa. Im busy laa. ))= SoRi eejah. Agter that. Dada saw mama. Saw mummy tooo. Haa. Hapi working. And hey. I met new fwens. I dunnoe if that person is a guy or girl. Maybe it`s a her. She`s a bootch. Maybe laa.. I myself cant figure her/him out. Flat-chested. But she looks like a girl lor. It all started off wen dada terBUMP into that person. So we talked. But that`s all. That person is working at levi`s Isetan store. Gave me a mini chocolate. Haa. How nice kan. So after shopping. Went to walk around the mall. And i began to wander myself aout at BALENO. At that tym, i was listening to my MP3. Little did i noe that. The promoter there is talking to me. The promter is a guy. I saw his mouth moving.Looking directly into my eyes. But dada taknk paiseh. So i just kept quiet. But this guy reActed like, 'asking me to take off my earpiece.' He was smiling. So i took the initiative to turn around. And guess what?? The colleque. Dunnoe how to spell laa. She told me that her guy fren wanted my number. Oh sheesh. I regret turning around and listening to what she is saying. Grr.. So the promter is chinese. Cute laa. But too bad. Eu canT prove urself better than my sayang dearest within that moment. Haa. So. I just walked away. Hey. I heart my sayang dearest okay. Cucok my earpiece to my ear and went away. Gee. Haloo. U are working but still taking chance to ask fer numbers. WTH. So. Amy saw the incident. She admitted that im a sombong girl. But wei. Too bad. Im sori okay. So todae. Fuhh. I got too many attention from the opposite sex. Gotta admit that. At 1st,, dada feel like woah. But after that. Dada feels sick and tired of it. Lalalala. THe girlfwens and guyfwens too admitted that i do get attention from guys. But not my fault kan... ((= So seriously. It was fun. If oni i gave my numbers. Fuhh. Ramai kawan baru saye ade. IF oni. . . But It`s okae. Im happi with the frens i have. So anw. Dada miss several pple. Dada miss sayang dearest a lottttttttts. Hmph. Didnt see him todae. Until god noes how long till i can get to see him again. And faddie. Saye miss eu. Ouh yeah. Fad told me actually it was our dae out. But wei. Seriously, no1 konfem wit me anythg. N she is like soo mad at me. Hmm. Sori. Sori. WOrds are words oni rite. But that`s all i can offer. Sori. I wonder if they go out still...? Sori ehk shaz. But just now, sayang dearest did kol me. I didnt pick up cause i was still in the pool. My hp was in the locker. So didnt get the chance to pick it up. Im sorri. So he wants to ask me sth. But shy. Wats up sayang? Shoot oni kae. I guess he wants tto lend my mp3? Haa. Or im nor sure lei.... But i did returned his kol ard 8. But he didnt answer my kol. Ape sei. . . . Takpe laa.. Back to those old daes. Lalala. No kol or messages from him. Hmm. So fad didnt message or kol me. Anw. It`s hard fer fad to find me and kol me. Alaaa. Maybe she has got toooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo many pple to hog otp with. That`s y. Nvm. Understandable. I give chance laaa. What to do. Long tym tk tok to her otp. Either she`s busy or i am. Ok sori blog about that. Anw. After that ard 10. Head to paya lebar. Went to take mrt. So the dae has ended. Soon to be. And in the mrt. Haris sat beside me. He was like one freak. That moment, he asked fer my number. OMG. Alaa. He said he wanted to make frens je. But he respect that i do have a guy. But still wants to make frens. Saying its not wrong. Well. Yeah. It`s not wrong. But. I dun feel quite rite laa.. So he asked mamat and amy fer help. Amy wanted to give my number behind my back. But alas. She think twice. Acap and co pity him. Pleading me on behalf of haris to give out my number to him. Argh.. No wae. Still. I didnt give away my number. Sigh. Pity him. But i suspected that the girlfrens gave my number to haris. Grrr. Cause ayu look suspicious. And maggie seems guilty. **tinking** Asshole dem. Okay. Sori haris. Yeah. We are frens. But no nid to contact also, we are frens rite. So. THere aint any diff okae. Cheer up fren. ((= So we stick ard till 11 plus. Ard that tym. My mummy ring me. Planning to fetch me and bring me to supper. Togethet with aunt nana, uncle LI. Iffin and Hilmi. Wee. I soo miss Ifin and Hilmi. They are so cute kiddos. And i love them both. Hugs to dem. So they kissed me a lot. And guess what? I kissed iffin sooo many times. Haa. Actually. I wanted ssoooo badly to have sayang dearest to be infront of me. So that i can do the same like how i did to iffin and hilme. Iffin is sooo manje. And that reminds me of sayang dearest. He woulds alwaes hold my hand. Sounds like sayang dearest. LOL. And WAnting to sit on my lap always. So dada layankan his karenah. I wish i could hug sayang dearest like how i hugged iffin. LOL. Okae. Just kidding. But seriously. I do lepaskan my RINDU towards sayang dearest on iffin. But i miss iffin and hilmi too laa.. And wei sayang. I miss eu like hell. Grrr..!!!!!! Miss eu sayang. Miss eu lots. So. We headed to a restaurant called 'HILAL' Yummeh. Filled my stomach with sup tulang. Beef steaks. And nasi goreng Vietnam. And bandong. And ice longan. Gawd. I eat a lot. Ish. Ish. Padahal. B4 that, i ate spaghetti, cookies, ice cream, and pastry uh sei.. Ish. Ish. Eat like pig. So after that. Lepak dere til 12 plus like that. And alas. Here i am. And not. I feel soo sleepy. And i appologised to those hu messaged or kolED me. Sori i didnt pick up okay. And addie. Eu koled me? Sori ehk. Im avoidiing u kols because i`ve promised to my abg wawal to not tok to strangers. Well. I dunnoe eu anw. And sori Raihan. I was busy. My hp was silent. Saye tak sombong laaaa.. And i miss toking to eu laa. Haa. Klaa. Im tired alrd. Tata. Nites. Swit drms. Take care okay. Miss my sayang dearest lots. Miss my bestie. And dada miss my abg pn. . . To hell laa itu. ))= Ouh yeah. Anw. Im counting my daes till my abg nizam come back home. Wee. I sooo miss him okae. Hmm. Yeyeyeye. He`s my fav okae. Wonder how he looks like. Haa. Masih ensem? LOL. Okae i definitely miss him. Counting down. Wee. ((= Gtg. Taa.

``Syasya-

Hey!

2006-06-23T17:03:00.000+08:00

So aloha. Been two daes or so since i last blog. Hmm. I simply have got no tym to blog though i have much things to be said. But sadly, now. I`ve got nothing to blog on. Oh well. Let me tell eu yeah what had happened. Actually. Nth much to start off. 23 Junne 2006 Oh well. i met my sayang dearest early in de morning. Hmm. It was so nice being with him. I just want to be with him longer. But too bad, i cant. So i was late. Haa. As usual. And it rained so heavily. We waited fer the rain to stop. So we sat at those stairs. Haa. And wei. I have to admit that he save his own skin oni. Hmph. Eu noe what mean rite sayang. And tt`s bad okae. Next tym i do uh. BLuek!! ((= And. He is determined that he`s not manje. But well. He is one pampered kid. That`s what i notis. Yeah. He is. Haa. Mati2 dun wan to admit sei. Eleh. Kire shy laa. Kan sayang? LOL. Sayang dearest is one manje kiddo. But luckily. He`s not spoiled. Thk god fer that. And hey. Seriously. I do MISS those tym wen i would follow him to the market. He would introduce me to those unfamiliar veggies. Thx fer that. And obviously paiseh lor fer me. Im a gal. But i dunnoe those stuffs. Unlike him. Hmm. Style kan. And i love him much. Even more. ((= So after that. Mit faddie and shaz. Went to the flicks. Wee. It was kinda hilarious. So eu guys. Go catch 'Just my Luck.' Saw nad and her guy. Aww. How i envy them. Shiok kan nad. Haa. Those were the tyms wen im with my abg wawal last tym. Okay stop fretting over the past. But hey. I do envy those couples. Nad and her guy. And Seri and Seth. Hmm. Cute couple. ((= Hey guys. Sori if i blog about eu guys w/o permission. But i meant well larh. ((= After that went Home. Blabla. And raihan did call me. But somehow. The lines been cut off. Hmm. It`s okie den. And im tired. 22 June 2006 So yesterdae. I meet my sayang dearest again. Wee. I love it. It was a short meet up. But hey at least. ((= He has his english lessons to attend. And i accompany faddie. So yeah. I wasted lots of tym. But hell. Hu caRes. Lalala. Didnt get to study cause i slpt the moment i get to class. Lazy me. Ala. I forgot laa what happened. STM. But hell hu cares rite. End here. So That`s it. Ive finish blogging. AND anw. Yesterdae. I sent the rong messages. SupposedLY to fad. But it goes to abg wawal. Grr. That pissed me offf.. Uh freak. Yeah. Cant sleep yesterdae. So i messaged fad. But little did i noe that i sent it to diff pple. And he read those messages. Yeah. I did dreamt about something. But frrom then. I cant go back to sleep. That suck. So. I ate maggi in the middle of the nite. But hey. I didn`t tok to raihan larh eventually. Decided not to. But in the middle of the nite. I received a super long message from abg wawal. Hmm. I read it. But i forgot what it`s all about. But i noe. He did said sth about 'so noe raihan is more important that me' Uh fcuk laa. Wat nonsen. Everybody is important to me. He`s oni a fren, for goodness sakee. Ive got my limits yeah. And hey. Im trying to pick things up from where i left. Trying to be 'setia.' Hey. It`s not that im being unfaithful. But i guess that my pergaulan with the other sex is getting more wider. I realised that. But i noe okae. I dun wanna hurt my sayang dearest. But hey. Abg wawal will alwaes accused me of stuffs. I HATE eu freak fer that. Alaa. Watever laa. Cause i noe that im not like that. Unlike eu. Remember those incidents? I still do. Remember ELLY, mister? See. Hu`s the bad one now. Eh no. Tht was in the past. But still. The scars will alwaes remain. Okay. Im tired of blogging about eu. I`ll just get mad fer no reasons. And tt`s just wasting my bloody time. So. Yeah. We are drifting apart. Yeah. I admit. I do miss eu. Sori sayang fer that. But i hope eu dun get mad at me fer missing him too. ))= I guess eu wun. But anw, let it be tis wae. Slowly. I can get tis over and done with yeah. With the help of someone who i love dearly. Hmm. Love ehk? I dun believe in love actually. Ironic. But well. I do have deep feelings fer my sayang dearest. Tt`s true okae. Klaa. Im done. Toodles. Tata. Sweets. Syasya miss sayang dearest larh. Haa. Gotta catch some slp. Tkcr honey.

``Syasya-

2006-06-21T01:10:00.000+08:00

Hello. Hmm. Todae WAS fun. I got the chance to meet my sayang dearest. Wee. Well. It was a wonderful thingy. And i love it. BEST laa sei. If oni it was longer. Haa. How much longer. Hmm. Can i be with him forever and never be separated. Haa. LOL. Tt`s bullshit. N never will it happen. I cant get everything i want alwaez. ))= So anw. Dada was with my sayang dearest from 8:05 till 7 plus at nite. Aww. Tt`s like long. But it was short. I have to admit. So anw. Early in the morning. I met him. I was late. 5 minutes late. I`m sorri okay sayang. ((= I have my morning smooches from him. Wee. Haha. No laa. Kidding. So after that. Waited fer Zin to come along. Hmm.. It`s okay. The more the merrier. ((= So after that. Went to buy epok-epok and stufs. Lepak under the block. Okay. I love to waste tym with my sayang dearest. At least, he`s there. And i can crap with him. And the best thing is that. He will layann me. ((= Wee. And i just love eu sayang. So after that. Suddenly, sayang dearest ajak go to airport. Hmm.. What`s rong with him. Haa. So we did went there. B4 tt, et his fwens. And they tag along too. Wee. Nice. Lalala. Klaa. Wun rite in detail. After that, we head to bedok. At the first place, intended to play pool. But eventually. We just laze around at Zin`s crib. Hmm. It wassssssss sooooooooo FUN at there. I mean. Okay. I was super scared at 1st. Thx to sayang dearest. Klaa.. My post gone missing. Anw. To fad. Sori. N Cheer up dear. To abg wawal. Im de same with or w/o u. Im sori. And i miss my sayang lots.

``Syasya-

Y?

2006-06-20T22:58:00.000+08:00

Hello. Hmm. Todae WAS fun. I got the chance to meet my sayang dearest. Wee. Well. It was a wonderful thingy. And i love it. BEST laa sei. If oni it was longer. Haa. How much longer. Hmm. Can i be with him forever and never be separated. Haa. LOL. Tt`s bullshit. N never will it happen. I cant get everything i want alwaez. ))= So anw. Dada was with my sayang dearest from 8:05 till 7 plus at nite. Aww. Tt`s like long. But it was short. I have to admit. So anw. Early in the morning. I met him. I was late. 5 minutes late. I`m sorri okay sayang. ((= I have my morning smooches from him. Wee. Haha. No laa. Kidding. So after that. Waited fer Zin to come along. Hmm.. It`s okay. The more the merrier. ((= So after that. Went to buy epok-epok and stufs. Lepak under the block. Okay. I love to waste tym with my sayang dearest. At least, he`s there. And i can crap with him. And the best thing is that. He will layann me. ((= Wee. And i just love eu sayang. So after that. Suddenly, sayang dearest ajak go to airport. Hmm.. What`s rong with him. Haa. So we did went there. B4 tt, et his fwens. And they tag along too. Wee. Nice. Lalala. Klaa. Wun rite in detail. After that, we head to bedok. At the first place, intended to play pool. But eventually. We just laze around at Zin`s crib. Hmm. It wassssssss sooooooooo FUN at there. I mean. Okay. I was super scred at 1st. Thx to sayang dearest. I overcome it. Yea. Obviously, i fel uneasy. ))= 4 guys and a girl in a house. Lalala. But nth laa eventually. ((= So. The food was nice. Hmmm.. Advice to u all. If u`re shy, u lose out. LOL. But nice uh sei. The ayam and the meat. Fuhh. Maut. ((= And he`s nenek is like super nice. I wish i cld have a nenek like tt. IF oni. So. At zin`s house. Haha. There`s a lot of things that happened. No need to list can? But hey. Dada sue love all those stuffs yeah. I love it bebeh. And i love eu sayang. See. I miss eu alrd. Even wen i beside eu, i did miss eu lots. WTH?! Miss you sayang. I miss my bolster. And thx kae. At least u dun choose me as ur bantal pelok. U said i was ur matair. Weee. I tot u wld choose me as bolster instead. See zin. I won. Bluek. And one dae. Im gonna get u back. Hmph!! Bluek uh. Cetot eu. Hmph. I miss my bolster. If oni i can bring him back home. How savvy. And by then. I can sleep easily. Wahh. Bestye..!!! Hmm. So. Now i noe. That my sayang dearest is MANJE? Haa. I didn`t noe he`s like that. Okay but cute kae. His the LAST wat. So understandable.... Keeke. ((= Tt boi. I love him bebeh. Mwahz!! Can eu stay beside me alwaez. I want eu laa sayang. I wanna hug eu and never let eu go. I wanna. Okay. No comments, Wun blog about tt.((= I wan eu laa sayang. Haa. Eww.. Mushy-mushy. Meluat saye!((= Okay. Im missingg my sayang. Gawd. Help me. Maybe. He`s not gg to skewl. Strg ibe telling me that. Take care kae sayang. So at last. Todae. I shared some of my probs with my sayang. 1st tym laa sei. I dun usually share with him. But i did todae. Pelik. He told me about he`s last tym 'problem'. And i did told him about RAIHAN. Phew. At last he knew. Yeye. So. I noe my limits kae. He`s totally fine with him. As long as i noe my limits. Tt`s what he said. Okay best. See. Ive got such a darling bf. He understands me soo well. And he dun control me toking with guys. HAloo. It`s hard to find guy that enable eu to mix ard with ur guy frens okay. So long. I hope i wun betray his trust. Or else. I`m dead. Thx sayang fer that. So. Now. I dun have to worry about abg wawal being angry at me. See. Sayang dearest has no objections me friend-ING with raihan. Wee.. But anw. He`s a nice guy. Good fren of mine. Oh shit. I miss sayang dearest like hell. So anw. Abg wawal didnt kol me tt dae. I guess. He`s busy msgING with sb else. Fine with me lor. Up to eu laa. Doesnt make a diff if eu control my life back and again cause it`s totally de same. With or without eu. I`m sori i had to say those thgs. But it`s true. Ur words are WANTON honey. Eww.. Siad eu kol. But eu never do. And pls. Dun expect me to kol eu. Cause i never make de 1st move. And tt`s me. And eu had rather message with org lain. U lead ur life and i lead mine. Think back. What`s the use of me giving up ceratin stuffs just fer eu. Where i dun gain anithg. Tt`s it. I dun nid all those study with eu thingy plans. I can study on my own. Thx dear bro. But get lost. Go away. I dun nid eu. Maybe i do. But i dun show. Cause all along. Im doing just fine without eu by my side. So. It doesnt care much if there`s eu ard. So what do i care? Do i suppose to care even? So anw. Tis is fer dear bestie. Wei!! I hella miss eu laa sei. And pls. I appologised okay if i did mistakes todae. Seriously. I didnt noe that u expecting fer my kol. So yea. I feel so lousy. I feel soo bad. U waited fer me. But i was enjoying myself. ))= And there must be sth rong with eu my dear. Tell me okay. We talk about it tml. And pls. I dun wan my bestie to smoke. Enough cause i have a guy hu smoke. ))= I wish upon a star that sayang dearest would quit somedae. So i dun wan eu to be influence. Pls fafad?

``Syasya-

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2006-06-20T20:51:00.000+08:00

that`s how i`m feeling right now. seriously. doesn`t it express my boredom? well anyway, that pic was taken yesterday in the car. lol. i was seriously bored plus i got scolded from my mum and yeahh. that shows what the picture potrays. lol. so anyway, if only i knew syaysa wasn`t in school, i wouldn`t have come. i seriously wasted my time. drawing pieces of shits. i only go cos i thought you wanted to see urmmm. u didn`t wake me up thinking i left you in school all alone so i rushed to school. i searched high and low for you but to no avail. i called u numerous time but again, NOTHING. so i gave up. okay i admit i was upset and disappointed and frustrated. but what to do. ohh i learn a new phrase. A SIMPLE 'I`M SORRY' IS THE BEST WHAT A PERSON CAN DO BUT SOMETIMES, THE BEST ISN`T GOOD ENOUGH. that`s true. right right? *i wish i was a punk rock girl with flowers in my hair*

Listen to this

2006-06-19T16:56:00.000+08:00

Hey dude. So i just downloaded the song abg shawal dedicate to me. Ouh. Tsk. Sad song dier. So. Thx awak fer the song. ((= Hmm. So the tittle is Ku Bertanya. Well. It`s a malay song anw. Slow. But meaningful. If oni kan.. What am i to do. Pple. Gee. Can`t blog about that. Hmm. So he gave me one song earlier on too. Nice song laa sei. ((= Sincerely I swear. Hmm. Very meaningful. Veri. And eu. Thx fer that too. Remembere those promises. But it`s oni in my heart. I cant expressed it. And u`ve got to understand it. And u doing great in that. ((= I thank thee fer that. I hold to my promises kae. ((= Anw. I would like to dedicate 1 song to abg wawal saye. Dunnoe from hu laa. But the tittle is. " Everything i do. I do it fer eu." ((= Fer eu kae abg dearest. But hey. Dada love sayang dearest too kae. Love him lots. And dada miss dier. Gee. 2 daes tak tok to him. Hmm. Well. Itt`s okay laa.. Tt`s us anw. ((= Im done.

``Syasya-

Nothing much actually

2006-06-19T15:39:00.000+08:00

Ouh well. Been ages since i last bloog. I mean. Tis tym round, i don`t blog anymore. Tt`s sooo unlikeof me huh. The daes where i had also blog has been over. I dont noe y the sudden change in me to stop blogging. So anw. Todae i did went fer skewl. There`s nothing much actually. Just to kill my boredom. And i have my breakfast at burger king earlier on. Hmm.. It`s so yummy. Delicious. But i`m not full eating those. So. I was late. As usual. I overslept. But by then. Shaz and faddie was already there. Sori guys. So. I talked a lot todae. Some nonsentical craps. LOL. But i was having fun thou. So while eating just now. I went out fer a while. And hey. There`s a guy asking fer my number just now. Haa. But i didn`t give. Didn`t tell any1 about tis. Cause i`m too tired to tell faddie about pple kenal-kenal. Gee. Mepek laa.. Got nothing better to do. Ish.Ish. Anw. Dada MISSS sayang dearest laa. Ouh. To those hu msgED me. Sori. Prepaid LOW. So cant reply. Haiz. Pathetic laa use prepaid. I wan my line back. -__-" To my abg wawal. Dada miss eu too. Gee. One dae. Wen i`m free, den can go out. Now. I`m broke. Hee. 19 June 2006 So yesterdae. I talked to my abg wawal dearest on the phone. Yeah. He did reprimand me fer my behaviour. But hey. Dada didn`t give out my number sei to those guys. Okay. Im sori that i went out with her friends. But kite all fren2. Yeah. You are tired of hearing those. Im sorri. But i noe how to take care of myself. I won`t give myself away. And whatever i do, I will alwaes remember that i DO have a guy. And i will remember eu okay. Trust me in tt. So. I heard his nagging. Thx abg wawal. I noe eu care. Those words saying," You. I dun wan u to change because i still want eu to be my matair back. And i dun wan tis syahidah to be my gal. I wan the old her. And tt`s what im trying to do." So im touched by your words. Hmm. U still do love me. A lot though i`m with someone else. Tt`s soo strong of eu. I will try to change. But i did change alrd. But. No one realised. ))= Thx fer making me realised my mistakes kae. So anw. Todae i did went out. With my outside frens. Nice outing. She do have nice circle of frens. Friendly. Cool. ((= She mixes with those 18 and 19 dudes. Woah. She`s young uh sei. But hell watever. They are my NEW frens now. Weee. ((= 18 June 2006 So it`s Saturdae rite..? Err i forgot laa. Maybe i went to arcade. Is it? Before that, Dada went to play pool with faddie. Ok. I suck. Ass. I lose out to her. And what has happened. Grr. I hate to LOSE. I did have a splendid tym. After that, went to play those drums. DAYTONA. Wee. Fun. And i won. ((= And we played several rounds of parapara. Was fun kan. And without realising it. I spent almost all of my money. Tsk. Tt`s sad. And now. I`m BROKE. ))= ANd my heels hurt due to parapara-ING. LOL. 17 June 2006 Dada had nite class. Before that. I skipped my lessons in the morning. Overslept. As usual. And i met faddie ard 12. Went to her house to eat BK. Tapau from dere. And dada watched Scary Movie 1. Ouh well. Its outdated. But hu cares. Funny laaa. And fad`s teaching me craps. LOL. But i did enjoy myself. WEe. And yeay to me. Cause during nite study, I can see my sayang dearest. Dada miss dier laa.. ((= He sat beside faddie. And tt`s close. Yeah! But tak shiok cause hard want to see him. Haa. But at least. After nite study. Me, faddie and shaz went to grab sth fer us to munch. So head to downtown and we ate satay. Ouh. Yummeh!And i bought mee bandong. But i eat a bit oni. Grr. Waste my money!!! Hmph. And i`m broke. We played arcade after that. Ouh ya. We saw FAIDHI..!! Mak ai. Ape daa jadi ngan rrambot kamu sikk..??? Ya ALLAH. LOL. Ok. Im done.

18o6o6-

2006-06-18T01:31:00.000+08:00

a l o h a . so today`s the 18 of june. and HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYAH DEAREST`! MUACKS` I LOVE YOU =)) a year older yet still young at heart. lollies. no matter what, i`ll still love u. and ohh! HAPPY FATHERS` DAY TOO`! weeee~ doinks. haha. okay done. 16o6o6- where did i go? cannot remember larh. damn. *brain on work* ohh it was a friday. i had physics lesson at 8 till 10 but it ended 15min earlier so then i decided to do my d&t since syasya didn`t come to school so i tried to occupy my time. i was suppose to go for my d&t til 5 in the evening but me being me, i went home at 1230 straight and didn`t come back to school till 530 for the night study. syasya went to my crib and we ate and watched scary movie 1. yeahh i know the movie is like outdated but hell whatever. we had fun! right syasya? wakakaa. *thinking what i`m thinking syaa?* lollies. so i had a shower and then we left the house at around 4. we headed to syasya`s house and then back to school. after night study, syasya, shaz and i went to downtown east to have out dinner. we ate satay`! yummy`! on the way there, i saw ahmad. it`s been long since i last saw him. anyways, the bus driver was so extremely stoopidd. okay so we wanted to stop at the downtown east bus stop. i can`t remember if we did ring the bell. so the three of us quickly rushed down the stairs and syasya went like "eh uncle, why u never stop?" and the reply goes, "don`t know" lol. stoopidd sia. u mean u can`t see the bus stop or were u sleeping? doinks`. such people. ohh i saw eeeen! haha. it`s been ages since i last saw him. cool. he still look the same thou. we had a small chat. nice talking to him thou. blablabla. went home. 17o6o6- i had d&t just now and then went to the english class. superb boring. i`m glad to say that at least, i`m progressing in my d&t. a step higher which is to get the materials from teacher. hey. at least it`s something. right? so anyway, later at 4, i met shaz and then ad and mas. we went to have our lunch at food culture. and i bloody wasted my cash. the food was tasteless. seriously. it is like as if ur eating the noodle with plain water. no kidding! ask shaz! so mas`s back from australia. thankie for the nougat =)) so then after lunch, we separated and then left shaz and i. we headed to bedok for shaz`s haircut. weee~ what a long wait. but whatever. blablabla. met syasya at east point. woah. the place sure did change! bigger! and i was frantically searching for the washroom. i was so urgent that i couldn`t walk. haha. as soon as syasya came, shaz left. awww. but anyway, syasya and i sure did had fun. we played pool and then daytona and then drums and then para para. weeeee~ stress gone, money also gone. wakakaa~ but we had fun. ohh the day before also we went to the arcade at downtown with shaz after dinner. we played drums and i so bloody wanted to play daytona but the tcard reader wasn`t working so i could also watch syasya and shaz play. doinks` but nvm. so thinking that it was early to be home still, i took bus number 3 which took me home 45 min later. went for a walk at downtown but nothing interesting. doinks -_-" so went home. and my brother`s friend was here. blablabla. now i wanna sleep. okay bye.

2006-06-17T14:47:00.000+08:00

Hey. I`m not on task to blog animore. Maybe the blogging habits have stopped. So anw. I shall blog todae. Finally. Im okay from my illness. Wee. So yesterdae. I did have my nite study. I saw sayang dearest. Yeye. But i sense sth`s rong with him.. Y ehk. . Before that around 1 plus. He asked if i wanna mit him not. Alaaaa.. I want uh sei but too bad i was with my fren at that tym. So decided to give it a miss.. GRR.. If not can see him sei. Anw i miss him. Ok laa. Shall not rant bout it. Tired uh nk blog. Bubbye den. Im gonna go out. Wee. And i loike that boi. Raihan. He`s a darling. Hapi bdae to eu okay. 1 MONTH in advance. ((= Haa. And to ayah faddi. Hapi bdae cik..((= Advanced. N to my ayah and all dad. HAPI FATHER`S DAE. In advance. Ok. im done. Off to go. Tata. ((=

``Syasya

tired.

2006-06-15T21:20:00.000+08:00

faddie had a tiring day at school. i was late for my english class just now. as always =) but hey, i`m trying to be punctual already. slowly trying lorr. so anyway, syasya waited for me while i diligently did my d&t. lollies. i got a complain from kwek. she bloody complaint to tan that i haven`t been doing anything since morning. i was still dead okay. nevertheless, i`ve manage to get my material [thou it`s only 2 acrylic rods] and started to work on it. standing at the lathe machine for 2 hours seems like 2 days. i didn`t had enough rest from yesterday. but hell whatever. okay now my mind`s disturbed. i seriously don`t like it when u say but u don`t mean it. whatever larhh ehkk. my parents went to plaza singapura just now. i wanna bloody follow but can`t. blablabla. bolalaa didn`t turn up for tuition today. okay i admit it was boring. boring because i can`t disturb anyone except for belo. wakakka. poor belo. stoopidd. ooppss. okay now i`m interviewing anwar. he`s back!! weee~ but we don`t really talk so it`s not much of a big deal. bolalaa, SUNDAE!! weeeeeee~ okay i`ve got to go now. belo wanna use the comp. tata. I'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions This'll be last chance you get to drop my name IMU`-

NOthing much

2006-06-15T20:23:00.000+08:00

Oh well. Finally. After 1 week. I am okay from my illness. ((= Wee.. I am sooo super glad. Finally. Abg wawal can bring me out. WEEe. ((= So i did go to skewl just now. How i miss gg to skewl. Haha. And Fer the obvious reason. I miss sayang dearest soo much. Ouh shit. I blog fer a while larh. I still have the cough. N i`ve been coughing non-stop. Tsk. So anw. I have my english lesson. As usual, i WAS late. ((= Early in the morning, i get to eat spaghetti. OUh. Yummeh. Delicious. Hmm.. Thx to faddie`s mom. ((= Thx ehk cik. After tt, Fad went for DnT. I was left in class. But later, sayang dearest msgED me asking if i want to meet him.. ((= Like of course i want. . . Hahaha. So after much persuasion. We met. Fun sei. Aww.. I LOIKE those parts. I want it to go on forever. Y does it stops. Grr. LOL. Dada miss him lor. And hell. I LOVE him. ((= After tt. Kite seperate. But ard 5, he asked want to meet again. Weell. We meet. ((= It was FUUUNN. Spending tym with him. Awww... I want. Neh mind laa. So much of laughter. LOL. He`s cute. Mimicking me. Im sori sayang i bit eu. Im sori dear i pinchED eu. Im soo sori k sayang. But i love eu still. And i miss u byk2. Mwah3. ((= Klaa. Da. Wanna watch Spore Idol. Wee... Hadi soo kewt. Anw. Ive got a new job. Starting from daes back. Dada`s been helping shawal to wake up in order fer him not to be ate fer skewl. Kewt laa dier. Said he MISS me. I miss him too.. Miiss eu kae.. I`ve got a date with him somedae. Wonder if sayang dearest will let me go out with him. I noe he will approve. Cause i noe tt sayang dearest is sooo understanding. He don`t control me. And thx dear fer that. LOVE EU bebeh.

``Syasya-