Lost In Beauty-

Sunday, March 26, 2006

Okay syasya`s BACK! Finnaly- Well. Todae`s OUTING- iI would ranked it the LOUSIEST at least fer now. Does not turn out the wae i tot. Sigh! And GAWD! It`s damn BOREDDDD!! Well fer me laa..Coz. Haloo.. It`s suppose to be a SPECIAL dae! But to hell to that. Like is THAT what eu called special? Urgh! Well i`m JUSST FESS UP. Tottaly. Darn blady. I`m sori laa.. But well i`m just angry at MYSElF? Maybe. Laa. Can i like blog openly? To HIM- If EU ever come across this blog. And eu dun like it- See tt coz over to the right top hand corner? Click it and go- See that line, EU shud have NEVER crossed it. Okay. Whatever. This is part of MINEEEE blog and doesnt matter. What i feel. I should write. Let it out- I feel like screaminggggggg- Let me start off. Everything. ANd i mean everythig. First and foremost. Syasya mit up with HIM at 4:40. I was LATE. As usual- We planned to go town. Just the two of us. And after tt we are suppose to play pool. Just the TWO of us. But change of plan- We met his BESTIE. Hu took cab from his house and fetch the two of US, heed bedok to play pool. Yah- I dun mind laa with his friens along. Seriously. Swear over my NAME- Reach bedok. Hit the pool. And the first game was His bestie VS his adik. His bestie won throughout the game even with the other 'brothers'. Halfwae. HE went to play pool with his friends. Chinese friends ajak him. He played. And well. I sat dere and watch. After tt, he played vs his BESTIE. B4 tt he SaID- 'Later eu play k eu? I wan to play with eu.' I said-'Ya okay. But eu must beat eur BESTIE den eu can play pool with me Laa..' He agreed and try and he won. But skali. His bestie pack up and daa.. End of pool- I was like. Waiting fer MY turn. And it turn out to be like tt. Shit! After tt, hit to MC and makan. Nth happen. It was normal. But i dun really be myself laa.. Quiet most of the time. After tt we went to cityhall. Lepak maybe? And eu noe. Everytime, wen we heading to some place, I dunnoe where we going. It`s like me just following dem. Sigh. So unlike ME- Okay my entry is like soooo dull. Dull. Reach the cityhall. We go to esplanade. Intended to. But skali, bump into their friends. And dey tok tok to each other, And me? Sitting dere. Bored. But at least tok laa to him. Den HE suggested to go jalan-jalan. Just the TWO of US. I agreed. But tak sampai 5 minutes of walking. His BESTIE called up asking where are we.. Lalala. We mit up with him again. And dere goes our time that we INTENDED to jalan2. After tt, we suppose to go to ROOF TOP. But tt MAT WORLD suggested to go to library. Fine den. Tot wat laa he wanted to do. Skali HE check FRIENDSTER. Ape laa.. Den i and HIM went to rooftop dulu. And guess wat, skali my MOOD changed. ANd WE were practically LOST our mood. And syasya was like. So harsh towards HIM. My reaction, words and all.. He asked ME why . And i said I`M bored. BORED. HE said. So you are BORED laa wen EU go out with me? Dn i explain to HIM. To my bebeh SAYaNG- ``Im soo soo SORRI k fer just now. I didn`t mean to be like tt and it happened on the 25. SO sorri. I`m guilty. I know YOU are HURT deep inside. But hey. Eu too have to feel wat i feel rite. To me, it`s just not fair. Because of tt MAT WORLD, eu nak angry angry fer wat? Ya i can see tt you ARE irritated with the PRESENCE of him. But hey, Control uh. You cant continue like this. If this prolong, guess i don`t want to follow EU out with EUR fen ever again. To me, MAT WORLD is okay. Just don bother uh wat he said. Pls pls. This will affect the RELATIONSHIP as it will deterioate ur mood and it will affect ME to. I dun wan to see the HoT -tempered guy. And besides,

i just DUN like, ABHOR. wen EU smoke.

Yah, i had alwaes said tt i dun MIND. But hey. I HATE it. You LOVE IT. I admitted tt i`ve becoming a PASSIVE smoker since i knew eu. ARGH! i dont want to be tt. And i`ve made a promise to my pakcik tt i will get away from eu guys if u smoke. I tried but somehow. How can i escape when all of eu smoke almost eveytime? I`m glad tt EU dont smoke that much when i`m around. And i knew tt somehow YOU dun like it cause you cant smoke freely right? Haa. I`m soori uh. But hey, let me compile this up. Sometimes, i dont want to go out with eur friends. You know y? It`s BECAUSE. I just dont like seeing the HOT-tempered sayang i`ve got and tt smoking part.. ROLLING- Skip that part. Okay laa. after tt it was photo taking session. It was fun. Slightly. Bettter. You know right the attachment i feel with the cameras. Hahaha.Okay, Den in the middle of the photo taking sessions, SHAZ came. OMG- I dont realise untill HE told ME. Halo shaz. Sori uh i dont realli tok to EU. Boring uh tok to EU. WEN everytime, i tok to EU, the only thg you had answered is my question. How bored can tt be? Oops , ME and YOU are just not compatible to be toking buddies. Sorri- Ya. If not. Syasya suppose to MEET fafad darlyk sei to play pool. But tak jadi. And fafad syang- Sorri ehk. My tone was like dunnoe ehk. Sori- Wen the part i ask eu to book table den eu sae got a lot of people. Den eu said deres alwwaez next tym to play. HAa. Cetot tol. I wan to play den fer wat come but tak play kan. Den i change plan to go home. But HE kate later he bored and stufz so i stayed togeder with him provided he promise to not be angry angry. But promises are meant to be broken wat. He broke HIS promises. DARN! I thought i thought HE would be alrite after that promises HE made. So i stayed laa.. But still de same. And i`m KInda BoReD- But syasya keep my cool uh. After that , it was okay laa.. But HE tetap angry angry. Sigh. Den i get to meet FAFAD sayang at BK! I was like. Fad!! Haa. So MISS her!!! Hmph. SEROIUS. Den i fetch FARHAN. It was HIS birthdae and i blanje HIm.. Shiok uh tt part.. But come that part wen i and HIM were to separate. And farhan was like imitating how HE wipe my hand. Hmph! Okay yah. Syasya admit i DO miss HIM- But wat to do..

Learn okay- DONT feel so attached to HIM.

LalALALA~ Okay syasya cut short okay? It`s like super LONG- After that, syasya went HOME. I didn`t tell HIM. And HE went to the BEACH. But went i REACH tamp interchange. HE messaged ME to tell him if i want to go HOME tell HIM. I was like huh? He tot i went to play POOL. Ape sei. If not, HE wanted to go BACK with ME- Boo hoo!! Never tel me earlier. The END- Okay i`m done with these thgy called one MONTH anniversary. Lalala- Bored almost all the time- Bahh!! Friends ARE more important. (i agree)

So even wen EU are celebrating a celebration lyk tis. DO invite MORE friends to come along alrite?

Angry angry. Cant EU just ignore HIM? Halooo- And at nite, syasya cannot slp. Tok to my darlyk otp. And we sae our sorries all that stuffs and HE told me that actuall HE wanted to watch movie. Lalala. It`s too late lor. Early early don`t want to tell. And how wonderful it IS todae! Grr- Fer now. TT`s all folks- Heart Burning-* Anw- Syasya da long time never hear from PAKCIK. I`m staring out of the sky. Praying that he would wok into my life. Where is the mate of my dreams? Does HE even realise I`M here? Where is HE? Where is HE? Where is HE?Where is this beautiful GUY? Ya. Syasya do miss HIM laa. Haloo? How can i forget HIM totally after i spend like SEVENTEEN months of my life with him? Duh- Don`t rattle about the past laa. Heart pain. Okay ya it`s NOT wrong to miss HIM rite? Any objections? Not ME! I have the right to LOVE and MISS someone.

Even if YOU`RE attached?

Err. YahhH- I guess.

Peace out- ``Syasya-

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