Happi Bdae to u in advance. Few more minutes to go. . .

``Syasya- Oh well. Halo. Ts is yesterdae's continuation. OhH. Is there such a word? Waever laa.. So yesterdae. I was planning to go study with bestie. But ended up cancelling it. Ive got a strong vibe that she cant go at 1st. So wen dearest sayang kol to go out, i agreed w/o asking faddie. Sorie bebeh. But i tot it wld be gd if u n dearest study together. Ape la.. So I get to meet sayang yesterday. Yippee. ((: But hey he sound so strez up in the phone earlier on. I knew something is wrong. Heart beating fast. So i was late. Again and again and again. As usual huh? And sayang dearest went to my block. Sit there for god knows how long. Kekeke. Sori okay? U planned last minute. Soo... ((: After that went to marine parade library. He got no mood to study at all. Sad. But i tried to push him to study. But hey. At least he read up chapter 6. Yeye!! I knew he has given up hope on humanities.. But sayang, chia you okay? Anw, we spent more tym on talking. I was feeling bad cause i cant cheer him on. All my talkativeness and lamest keep him abreast fer a while. Grr. And wen it came to silent, sayang dearest become all stressed again. Cian dier. But, i wonder. Wonder. Whats that problem of his? He said he dun want me to think about it much. Cause it will affect my studies? Huh? And he said its oni a small matter. Small matter that involve parents and teachers? Think. Think. Hmm. Ape2 laa. As long as it will go away sonn and stop bothering my sayang dearest mind. If it affect me, i guess its better dun tell me okay? So we laugh and laugh. As usual. ((: Oni thing, sometimes, he got no much mood and well, i have to behave rite? Give him silent fer a while. So we spent a little tym together. But at least. ((: Rather than none of it huh. Time flies really fast. So ard 3:50 we were outta library. Heed to tampines. Im gonna mit my ibu dearest,adek and abg wawal. Its an advanced celebration for abg wawal bdae. Best ehk. Im sooo jealous. And my mom wants to ajak him makan.. Its been long laa since i tok to abg wawal. Maybe 1 week? Hes been acting soo cold towards me latetl. Im suprised not to receive any news from him lately. But as tym passes, i will adapt. Chiayou sya! I was scared to meert abg wawal laa.. Dada scared i will just maintain silence. That is sooo unlike me. But dada dun wan to spoil the mood. Dada start to liven the situation. I was kecoh. ((: Fer a while. Ale2 terdiam. BUt overall, the bdae bash was fun. I wish tt time was my bdae lor. And i realli think that my ibu dearest realie love him. I cld sense it. My mom touch him. ((: Swit her. I mean she usap abg wawal ye face and nasihat him al tt. I dunnoe if she knew we not together. But i tink tt she miss him. Argh! Even my family misses him. I dunnoe if ifin and amy ingat abg wawal tak. But im sure they do. The tym wen he tok to dem. Play at the playground. Sigh. So well, ya syasya admit sya miss al those times. And ble kat pizza hut. Did i mention that we went to pizza hut? There u go. My mom dun even care my closeness with abg wawal. I mean she even said to abg wawal tt, about that manje thingy. OMG. Wen we were walking together, she even pull my adek aside in order to let abg wawal wok with me. Ohh. How great can eu be mummy? I love eu..!! But too bad, we da not together kan. So, wats the use? Tsk. Tsk. Seeing all tt makes me feeling nostalgic. So after that, we separated from mummy and adek. Abg wawal ajak go play pool. I agreed. But gt exam ehk. Hakz. Dada dun care. Cause im too strez up with stuffs. Grr. So it was not fun laa at pool. Cause i didnt tok much. Im just afraid that that outing will be the last tym we go out. Takmu gitu uh. Got that strong vibe. )): In the middle of the game, it turn out to be fun. And dada admit dada play kasar. I learnt the skill to hit the ball hard. So all the wae, i vent my anger at the ball. Kesian die. So the ball tercampak out of the table many many time. I was supposed to go library but instead i went to play pool. Ish. Ish. Sya. Sya. So wen nk kat alek. We chill at my bustop. I told him not to send me. But he will always insist. Anw , thx okay. So at the bustop. He asked y im acting so weird and not toking much. Grr. I kept quiet. But to escape from more queries, i started to tok. But he can see the faking me. Hmph. So we chatted. And he asked if he got see his friendster not. Anw, syasya da lame tak c his frenster. I cant take it laa.. Hmm. He told me he posted his picx with tis F-named gerl. And commented that i will sakit hati. And tts his main purpose he did tt. To make my heart burns. Thk god i didnt visit his. So he told me that he had enuf seeing my long posted pictures with dearest sayang. Sorii laa. But. Understand uh.. Da laa.. I tink tts about all. He told me misses me. But he did that so that i can gain my happpiness with dearest sayang. But hey. I dun wan to lose sei my kwn2. Ya. Im attached. But so? He doesnt matter. And i know my limits uh. Hmm. Fine lor. If thats want abg wawal want. The promise we made will soon be left unsaid. Again. Grr. But tt night, dada cried. Tsk. Tsk. Maybe pms uh. Haha. But i meant it laa. Sometimes i dun like my life. . . . Full of challenges. Im still young. N i can take all these challeneges. I nid someone to hold me back. Now i tink abg wawal is okay from the outbreak. And sadly, it passes down to me. Im so fragile now. Grr.. How strong i tried to be, i failed. For this matter, i tink i nid abg wawal's help. But never will i tell him. No!!!! So i will stand on my feet again. Fer the i dunnoe how many time. So i feel like its the N level period last year. How bad can i feel. Argh! Those tymzz... I wish that i never come across all this at the 1st place. )): The best thing is that i wish my skewl is an all girls skewl. Hee. So, i dun get mix up with the boys. And my feelings wun be entangled to such state. Emotionally, im unstable. )): ``Syasya-